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Borderline btw colleagues and friends

2012-02-06T02:14:00.006-05:00

How do you differentiate and be clear of the borderline between colleagues & friends.

When you starts working life.

The one who surrounded you would be your colleagues or co-worker.

Whereby you starts to see various faces and characters.

Which somehow you couldn't really make up your mind, who you supposed to be with.

Are they sincere, real. Or they are just showing their superficial face.

However, that day I heard from a person who segregated out the colleagues and friends clearly.

These are my colleagues, colleagues are not friends.

Is that so.

I believed these elements did apply on someone.

Colleagues are someone you can have meal with, hang out during working hours etc.

Perhaps nothing more.

Friends are someone that even you didn't work with, you will still hang out and always make plan.

Colleagues are someone don't really care what problem you have; as long as you do your work will be fine.

Friends are someone care for what happen to you. They always wait besides the phone for your call.

Colleagues are someone don't really care about your feeling; which they can still have fun after knowing you're not in the mood.

Friends are someone who care for your feeling; they won't have fun unless you're with them.

Colleagues are someone who will be opposing you when something bad happen; and distance themselves from you asap or as far as possible.

Friends are someone who always stand by you, even if there's something bad happened. They will stand through the whole bad time with you.

I wouldn't say all colleagues are like that.

And i m not saying all friends are sincere, they can be bad either.

People can change unpredictably, or due to the environment they are into now.

It will shock you when you see this face of her/ him.

People, precious what you have now.

Every once in a while, you might meet somebody whose worth it.

The Emotions~~~

2011-12-09T09:49:00.006-05:00

Almost two months after the transition, i still don't feel good at all.

When people asked me, how do you feel after transferring to a new environment.

Other than the unfamiliarity that i could depict, nothing seems interesting.

Just wanted to say, if you didn't feel like smiling at me, please don't do that.

It only presented how superficial you were.

I don't hate anybody, yet i don't have good feelings towards anybody.

That's all i could depict now.

I could neither feel happy now nor grateful.

I didn't feel appreciate with what i've been doing now.

And seriously, this has not been what i wanted to be in initially.

There were more people asking and checking whether i've survived better in the new environment.

They thought i am.

I remained silent.

I've nothing much to comment or say.

Whatever people wanted to think, just let it be.

I couldn't care more.

One word always appearing in my mind now. Exhaustion. How long could i withstand it.

I have no idea. No more impulsive decisions when you're having commitment.

Your commitment will make you think twice when you're heading to the impulsive tracks.

Then, your commitment will soothe you and calm you down.

Later, you will be having a different perspective towards the stuff that you encountered.

You would have to just turn yourself instead of waiting the thing to turn which has not been possible for long.

So, be it. Face it. This is the world. Even if you have emotions or hard feelings. Tone it down.

I kept telling myself that.

Vacation~Wonderful Bangkok Trip w Pals~

2011-12-08T10:31:00.016-05:00

It's been quite a week for the whole trip.

I would quote this trip as wonderful...as our itinerary mainly is on three motto...Eat. Shop. Massage.

Wasn't it cool. We've practically fulfilled all except for massaging.

We didn't really get to massage every single day as planned.

However, we've definitely fulfilled to the max on the other two.

Time fled while we were there.

And we thank that Thai hour is an hour later than us. Hence, we've gotten more time to sleep.

Frankly, we've bought our air tickets at an expensive rate.

Which we kept on comforting ourselves by the spontaneous that we all shared.

It's a place which worth visiting if you loved shopping, massaging and spicy or fried food.

If you're worried about the flood. Do Not. Cause Thailand has maintained it well, and regained their tourist area in fleet. Hence, we didn't really see any flood there.

However, there were still a few areas at the suburb were still affected.

Okay, i should just shortened what i said on the above and showered you with lots of pictures.

Cause pictures paint a thousand words, isn't it.

You will definitely find it as a food trip instead of shopping trip.

As most of our pictures were snapping on how interesting and delicious the food were.

The first meal we had after we landed. The chicken feet with soup were good. Esp with the chili flakes.

And we landed late that night. There's nothing much to do after night, as we were not so much a night person.

Our hotel view.

The first hand-made coffee by my travel mates.

Our 2nd day official visit & meal empowering,

Our first real day spent at MBK & Central World which was within walking distance.

Most money we spent would be at the ever famous and must go Naraya for lady handbags.

Central World's Naraya was the biggest among others.

We had it at MBK food court.

The dish was spicy, however, it was nice. Esp with rice. 50 baht per dish.

It's all with the intestine & skin. It's soft to eat & it cost us like 60 baht.

The intestine & skins were so soft & juicy.

The kuay chap that people always mentioned a must eat there.

The soup was nice, however, i don't really like the texture of the noodle (thick kuay teow)

It cost us 60 baht.

The Thai chili flakes that i mentioned earlier. If you're a spicy lover, perhaps you may tried putting more. It blends with the soup well.

However, the noodle below wasn't that nice.

It's of the flavor not of our preferences.

Furthermore, we found ourselves at a place full of their locals. And we were definitely fit ourselves into their seats inconveniently due to our heavy bags.

The uncle & his daughter that sits beside us warmly bring us another chair for our stuff.

The fish was being baked and serve in this manner with only the Thai sauce; in addition, we also ordered clam. Here we settled our first day dinner at central world area.

Do you guys really think we would settle our dinner that easy.

After our dinner, we went back to our hotel and get some massage & snacks around our hotel area.

Followed by supper at Ajisan. It's about our price here.

Will update more later.

Differences In Decisions

2011-12-01T09:24:00.007-05:00

It has came up to my minds.

If i've made a different choice years ago, would i be having this kind of life now.

Nothing much, just wondering.

To have pictured where would i be and how would i be.

Would i be having my own apartment, driving my own car, having a job that has been hoping for, ranting over the phone with my cousin every weekend.

Or hitting the road looking for friends who are into Nabeyaki Udon or Friendly's/ Joe's during weekdays.

Go for pizzas on Friday, and to China town for Vietnamese or Thai food during Saturday; whole day hang around the malls or Barnes & Noble.

Would i be having the scene of rainy Spring with fresh greens & flower blossoming on my way to work and home. With an open window without any honking or environment pollution while you drive.

Would i be having a windy Summer and kept on complimenting it; to have persuaded my parents to visit during Summer that a weather that suits them more and stay through the Summer to wait for Fall. Besides, visiting my host family at their vacation house during the weekend of Summer.

Would i be having a vicious Fall that made me love so much to see all leaves turned yellow and lies around the floor. Mean time, to look for friends who wants to hang out at the mall for some shopping for winter.

Would i be having a white Christmas during the Winter; in the mean time, keep complaining about how bad the snow is and how much have i loathe shoving.

Which one would i be having on the above if i were chosen a different life in the US. And again, ask my parents over for a visit and have a white Christmas together.

Rather than the life now that i've chosen.

I don't really know how do i rate now.

It's not too bad, not too good either.

I would put it as medium rare like a steak ratings.

Think was just those unfortunate stuff that have encountered right now.

I told myself i will be fine after, as what my parents told me.

Experiences needed to be earned in different ways.

Not everyone having that luck.

I don't call myself lucky star, but i m not too bad either.

When think of it, there are people who are in an even bad state than me.

Nothing to be blamed.

Sometimes found that, work hard is not enough.

You need certain skills, accompany with the luck.

Otherwise, you're still the same.

People whose never been in this state, wouldn't know.

Who don't know shouldn't be commenting then.

Not convincing or useful at all.

People just can't understand how does it feel.

The disappointment and sadness is not what people can feel or accommodate simply.

Because they don't know.

Most of the people will give some comments, thinking to have comforted you. Whereby, it turned out the opposite which they don't know either.

Sinking in the disappointment and sadness are not going to do you good.

Words are easily said than done.

Just that, the adaptation sometimes is not easy at all.

No matter how adaptable you are.

Sometimes, something are just not there for you or with you.

That's all i m going to say. Nothing much i can say either. Isn't it.

Human Being The Key of Success Nor Failure

2011-11-27T21:26:00.005-05:00

My superior was wondering when would i be throwing her a fit on my dissatisfaction along the letter.

I told her directly on the face, the work is not hard.

Human being is.

From starts to the end, human being are always the hardest thing to deal with.

If people were to be nice, no one would be offended and accept with a big heart.

How nice would that be.

How wishful were we to have that thought.

Society always cruel, especially when the fortune god is not by your side.

Hence, my philosophy is always to be independent, and try to not lean on people that much.

So, you will not be accustomed to people and it will not do yourself good at all, especially when you're at the fall.

This is an important message for people out there.

People are hard, you have to be tough.

I've always warn myself as well. Don't be over dependable.

When people have been awful on you, you can stand alone, and show them right on their face that, you can do it even though they don't support you at all.

People dare not come near when you successfully stand alone; as they would expect you to be stepped on or crossed over or even fail.

However, be strong, be tough and show it to them that even you don't have any support, you can still do it.

They are at the wrong end, thinking you have to depend on them. It def proves them wrong.

Human being is unpredictable as well.

You can't predict how this person or that person would treat you when you're at strange.

No people are obligated to treat anyone good. Except they are warm or so call the kind people.

So, learn it, be it.

This is the key that we would learn eventually.

A Gathering of the Hall of Fame...

2011-11-23T21:52:00.012-05:00

It's Elton John.

He's having the news value, yet there were protest, there were dissatisfaction by a close minded parties who stayed in our country.

Meantime, there were people who loves him, there were people who longing to see him.

He's the legend. Yet he's surprisingly performing in Malaysia.

Those protest were pointing fingers towards his gay marriage. Which i couldn't quite figure out what would it affect anything on his performance or his present as a professional singer.

Gathering of the Hall of Fame by all the people whom we could hardly see in our life.

Because of Elton John, the Hall of Fame has all gathered here.

A lot of people didn't even get the chance to watch him sing, as the good seats were way too occupied.

People who landed that night were out of surprised.

The royalties, the wealthy family, the top management of the company and etc...

Then only i realized how wealthy people could be.

All because of him, some people's life suddenly turned terrible.

Wicked & vicious attitude of human being made it all.

Believed i don't have to further elaborate.

There's the proverb which says; when you're just going to perform a two hours show on stage, yet you spent 10 years working on it.

Believed in it, cause it's so true.

You couldn't imagine how impressive was the gathering went.Bodyguards all over, people who can only sees up to the sky...ignorant human being...

Paired up with the amazing show. You couldn't paint the picture.

The show was really great and unforgettable.

He sang 2 hours non stopping. And Elton John is now 64 years old.

Without resting at all, just a sip of water to carry the whole show.

If you've got to see it once in a life time should be enough.

Transition Period~~~

2011-11-16T12:18:00.007-05:00

Why is a transition seems to be a nightmare now.

Supposingly i should be well prepared for the transition.

Never thought of the hardship, shifting from a comfort zone to another challenging new zone that i have to learn from the beginning.

However, from the initial of blurry until today, three weeks after; i have maintained myself in the best i can.

However, please do not tell me it's another nightmare due to the surrounding again.

Was thinking of a transition might be a new environment and surrounding which will be better after all.

It doesn't really seems like one now.

Snatching and earning credits underground are still there and around.

Would i just stay as far as i could to these.

I was somehow great to know that at least, somebody was there when i needed a voice.

However, most of the times, at this kind of closed minded place, it just didn't help much.

It's just a reminder for those people who picked on you to shut their mouth for a while.

Later on, it began again, after long awaited opportunity.

There's a lot of things to pick on you as long as you're not a favorite, this is a sad case.

Most of the people will go with the flow, and pleased whatever and however they could.

Some people would just go along with the loathing line and kept themselves down.

At least, there are still a line to survive on.

This is the society.

Transition is already tough, when human being complicates it, it became terrible.

Can't hear a drop of the happy voices.

It's All About Bailing Your Own Words

2011-11-16T00:02:00.005-05:00

What a place is this that the people on top who always backed on their own words...

It's ridiculous & unbelievable...

While they have even issued notes officially saying that there will be no more promotion on that position.

Yet, not even a month later, they have promoted someone at that position.

It was hard for digestion and acceptance.

Hence, until up to date, i have not said a word of congratulate from my mouth to anyone else.

My dude was telling me, i wasn't lucky to be seen & i wasn't in the right team.

When it came to choices, for sure they would choose their gang of people.

Yeah, it was in fact the truth.

With a person without strong personality & capability, but with thick buttering skill.

Yeah, it was again.

Or maybe i would just have to be lined with the butter group. Too bad to say, i can't.

This will be my weakness of all.

Therefore, when people said, there's always justice in the world.

Is it? Or all needs luck.

I couldn't really sees my future and being attached here.

It was very clear what people here were planning for.

With their over brilliant & shaded mind.

Nothing more than disappointment can said.

It was always from their own mouth, yet they were always the one who bailed on themselves.

Is this somehow a humiliation for who worked hard however gets nothing.

I seriously thought so now. Or maybe i just took it in a hard & personal way.

Or i shouldn't care. Shouldn't even have a dim hope on them.

They just needed someone who don't really know how to work hard in their real job, but know how to work their ass up.

Of course, put it fair, not everyone the same way.

However, i still couldn't accept on people bailing on their own words.

This was exactly what those people wanted, was it not.

I've nothing much to say.

And i need not say much. Cause i don't even get a stance to say a word on this.

Do whatever i was supposed to, that's it.

Nothing more.

People, when you reached my stage, it's not a discouragement to give up on anything.

Just work for another goal, since none of the effort have been appreciated & you have encountered a lot of bailer.

Simultaneously looking for a better opportunity.

Nothing much you can do. Do whatever you can within your limit, nothing more.

Cause, whatever you did, won't be recognized.

And, this is life.

Whether to make it colorful not, up to you. & to myself, it's up to me as well.

Vacation ~~~ Indonesia ~ Jakarta Part2~~~

2011-10-10T21:54:00.013-04:00

Sometimes, it's just lazy to have started back blogging when you've stopped it.

See how long have i been stopping since the last one.

From what i've remembered sometimes back, it's the image that have in my mind.

The road has never rested once. Always congested with a variety of transportation.

No matter at what times. The road are always congested.

Which made you wondered where does all these people and cars from.

It's not some peak hours or so forth. What was that.

It turned out that, a single family which holds 5 members happened to have 5 cars minimum, hence, it made the whole situation turned.

We were again having some local food on our way to Bandung.

Food were nicer along the way to Bandung.

We've also dropped by at the place which hosted a lot of visitors & tourists.

The tour guide brought us to the museum, to have known more of their culture.

It was huge, and we didn't get to walk for the whole area. It was way too big.

Hence, the tour guide has only chosen a few places which was more famous and special for us to visit.

Next destination to the volcano. Suddenly felt cheated by Bali.

Bali version: The volcano was still alive, and that's the reason why we couldn't get near. Our location to figure out where was the volcano has definitely puzzled us.

Bandung version: Though the volcano is still alive, but you're free to go down to the bottom party and get the eggs cooked. The minerals will go into the egg, and people there believed that it will help to get you healthier.

It's a shot by the tour guide who insisted us to be there for our memories.

Later then, the tour guide brought us to the spring.

See how my dude's leg turned into pinkish red after soaking in the spring water.

We were really filled along the way.

Safari visit after the spring soaking. Flooded you with some pictures that how closed were we.

Weren't they just awesome and pretty.

After the safari visit, we were just going back to our hotel for the rest of the night.

Though the tour guide kept telling us about hanging out later after going back to hotel.

However, we were just too exhausted to hang out after.

And...guys & gals...am just going to pen off here...

Ciao!!! Will write soon...

What more than disappointment~~~

2011-10-10T13:32:00.003-04:00

What can i said more...

There will only be a word here...Disappointment...

When you first came back, everyone was filled with hopes and been so enlightened from you that you're willing to get your base at the hometown.

Everyone. I didn't exaggerate it.

Now, it's the disappointment that everyone again have had in you.

And i m not exaggerating either.

It's every single one.

We didn't think of you can be this way. To have distanced from your beloved family when you got to know an unworthy person.

A god damn woman that turned you into this.

Perhaps i should be much more fair towards two of you.

What can i said more...other than the disappointment.

I always believed in you...however you let me down hard...

Hard that you didn't even care to utilize your fucking brain to think and analyse...

So, i've nothing to say more either.

Let it be the way you wanted then. Since you're more than willing to have manipulated by your emotions and people's emotions.

You always thought that you're smart.

Fine.

This was what you chosen.

If you felt happy this way, just go with it.

Vacation ~~~ Indonesia ~ Jakarta ~~~Day 1&2

2011-10-09T11:37:00.019-04:00

I've researched a few blogs before i take my trip to Indonesia.

Two places that were popular and highly recommended in the blogs and by the travel agency.

The capital of Indonesia, Jakarta. And one of the 05 big cities in Indonesia, Bandung.

Nothing was impressive but their traffic and their driver skills.

Though the traffic was congested, even more congested than KL; It was seriously hard to believe.

Such a small city did accommodate a variety of people, which makes their population hits up to 20,000,000. Which equivalent to our country's total population.

Besides, i've also found that there are very less people been there for travel, hence, the traveling info are very limited.

As we are having busy schedule at our work, therefore, we've decided to engage a travel agency to plan for us.

Believed me, first timer who wanted to travel to Jakarta or Bandung. Get prepared earlier, engage with an agency. It won't do you wrong.

This time, we've chosen a different airline, KLM Royal Dutch Airlines; which was by coincidence.

And would be highly recommended, since the fare wasn't that far from the 'everyone can fly'.

I wouldn't say the food they served were real good. However, it's not too bad either.

Upper: beef with noodle

Lower: Chicken with rice

However, i love their dessert.

The dessert was Layer cake with Strawberry mousse. Though i am not a dessert person, however, i did enjoy the dessert they served.

No worries, we were definitely not having champagne, apple juice & ginger ale.

It was so nice to be served on flight. It's been awhile man.

Let's kick start here with the trip,

Landed in Jakarta,

First day of visit has contributed to the late flight arrival and meeting the tour guide and our hotel.

Second day was a full day city tour. Touring the whole city with such humid and hot weather was really not an easy job.

The old Batavia now turned museum. To understand better of Jakarta's history.

It's an very old building that Jakarta government retained from the Netherlands colonel period until now.

As it's a museum from the old times, hence we weren't allowed for any photo shooting.

The museum displayed mostly the furniture that the Dutch have used previously when they were here.

The prison where they locked up the prisoners. It was seriously scary, no kidding, if you were in there for like a few minutes more, you felt the coldness.

There were also bicycle to be rented.

Besides, here's what we've found on some interesting thing to share.

You may find some differences on the public transportation from ours.

Except for buses, taxi, they were having the van, and bicycle.

Their buses were special for me, as the loading bay was higher, you must queue up at the bus station in order to get up the bus.

Due to the high density, we've bumped in their peak hours, whereby people prepared to get off work and go back by buses.

Next station headed to the place which called the tower of Jakarta.

A place that you can see all faces of Jakarta.

The tour guide has described this tower equivalent as our KLCC, which they felt very proud with it to have shown people around.

Before we went up to the top of the tower.

See how far was it to have walked. Therefore, we took the shuttle they provided there in order to reach the tower.

Here's how nice Jakarta would be when you're up at the top.

Lunch time, which i personally don't really enjoyed the food there.

The looks were always nice, however, the taste were just not really my bowl of rice...I wouldn't put it as i suffered throughout the meals.

However, just that i didn't enjoy it.

It's such lavish meal laying in front of me, however, the appetite wasn't there though.

The harbor that the tour guide mentioned, was one of the sightseeing place that we should go and it's in our schedule.

It was surprisingly an active harbor for their domestic import and export.

We never have thought this could be a sight seeing place until we saw some other tourists been brought here.

To have experienced more of the Jakarta life i would say, elses, would be to see what's the business that have made their economy hits.

This would end our first full day city tour in Jakarta.

I gonna penned off here.

I'm going to write the 2nd part later for the 2nd and 3rd day in both Jakarta & Bandung at a later time.

Stay tune if you are interested to know more...

Black day~

2011-09-21T12:11:00.004-04:00

People said black Friday or black 13....whereby, my day was just slightly blacker i guessed.

However, it was a Tuesday.

A black enough Tuesday for me, which has actually proved me that there's none black Friday.

Everyday can be a black day for me.

I was totally screwed by the scheduled.

In the morning, none good was happened.

When i dragged my heavy laundry bag to the laundry counter, the lady told me it's blacked out now. And they don't receive any order.

Great. I've to drag my laundry all the way back to my room, which is fortunately, a block away from the laundry place.

Here comes the best part, my superior asked me to do something which has been years ago out of a sudden.

Those were what she agreed on, and now, asking me to go work the whole things out after two years, when every account has been nicely settled and almost closed.

Just felt redundant.

When i talked to my other superior, it appears that she didn't really comprehend what i was trying to say.

Which i needed the point with an answer, not a simple okay with no exact answer.

My mood swing lately, was one due of it.

Never got to get off from the hassle, facing the same old shit everyday.

Seriously, without resting my mind and eyes are simply tiring.

It made people mood to swing even worse than usual.

Especially when i went to help out my friend's event, my phone spoilt.

For god sake, it's seriously not a good one to say.

When my dude ended his event and tried on calling me, nothing has been transpired correctly.

It made him 12 calls, but none can get to me.

Which initially i thought was his phone problem; unfortunately i was at the wrong side.

My goodness. What kind of day was this. Prayed for it to get away as soon as it can, and prayed for the never returned.

It's seriously a black day.

Any Idea What You're Up To~~~

2011-09-18T12:49:00.010-04:00

What word replaced better than exhaustion...i doubted.

The exhaustion wasn't simply referred to what we faced towards our work.

But ourselves.

The exhaustion has gradually and eventually procrastinating our dream, what we really want to do and etc.

So, do tell me what word can really replace this type of exhaustion.

It's no easy job.

It's no easy life.

Maybe you just don't know where this is going.

Maybe you just don't know what are you doing.

Maybe you just don't know what is this for.

Maybe you just don't know why you keep doing this.

You have no clue with your life anymore.

You felt you're lost in the world you supposed to know very well.

No one can tell you what to feel or how to feel or why are you feeling this hard.

Why things suddenly seems so hard for you.

Not a single clue.

This is exactly how i felt earlier on.

I asked myself what do i want. Why am i stuck here.

One of my friend asked me, why are you still here when you knew there's no promotion opportunity. What keeps you here.

I m wordless.

Other than my dude and the ever loved money, i don't know what keeps me here at the current workplace.

There will be no dream, no bright future, only now.

I m stagnant.

This comes up to me immediately.

So, how do i feel after. Again, i've no clue.

However, am glad to be rational & steadied at certain point.

The only philosophy that have to be hold on ... perhaps the simple life without yearning for huge ambitions.

Just go for the easy one.

Still, for whatever comes difficult, deal difficult.

You'll be fine after the difficult goes off.

Just be steadied with whatever we've bumped into.

With that, we will be fine.

Don't rub salt into the wound

2011-08-24T09:35:00.008-04:00

It's an experiences that i've gotten with someone around me.

Which i seriously couldn't believe my ear.

There's a colleague of mine who's pregnant with twins; unfortunately, she's has had a miscarriage with one of the twins.

Now, she has left only one baby. People is grieving for the baby lost.

Whereby the passed away baby has been staying inside the mother's belly until these two weeks, she has dropped out.

And it has expedite the whole situation to a different level.

Previously, when the dead baby is still in her belly, she has to go to the hospital so often for check up in order to make sure the other is still alive.

She couldn't work.

After the dead baby dropping out, she has to stay in the hospital for a whole two weeks, in order to double confirm that the baby is still alive and can be delivered healthily later.

The parent has already been in a triggered state, not only to face the lost of the baby, yet there's a lot more of the medical bill to come.

Previously two of the parent have been working, two incomes became one, and now the only income has became none.

As the husband needs to take care of the wife with the parents at the same time.

Shouldn't we be more sympathetic towards them.

However, when people is raising their voice for help, there's some people too, raising their voice.

Not to help, but to rub salt into the wound.

Seriously. If you don't feel like donating to them, which is now the most practical helps they need.

Please do not rub salt into their wound, by saying those craps.

The person said, 'is there a minimum or a maximum of the donation'.

When the collector mentioned none, and the person was reluctantly donate a 10 bucks.

Please, 10 bucks is just nothing, but your sincerity.

When the collector gone, the person immediately said, 'see, my 10 bucks gone so easily because of this kind of things. The 10 bucks can do a lot more things. And i think their insurance might be little or not enough.'

In my philosophy, no matter people having insurance not, it's just some helps that we would like to offer when people needs help.

Especially when they are already in such devastating state.

If you don't want to donate it, you can just say 'no'.

No one is forcing you to donate that little 10 bucks with a lot of rambling.

Seriously, you didn't help a thing, but you kept getting help from people, and now you rub salt into their wound.

I don't feel right about this, and it has made me slightly uncomfortable.

This is the first time that i've heard human being can be this cruel.

They are not nobody, we are helping our colleagues whom we sees everyday, whom they offer their best hands to us while we needed it.

For god sake.

Finally, we've gotten to know that this colleague of mine has safely delivered the baby girl later.

Most importantly, she's safe and so did the baby.

This is the only outcome that all has hope for, isn't it.

When you're devastate, maybe you will really feel the pain of simply spitting words that is inappropriate.

Please spare some thoughts before you want to rub salt into people's wound.

The 3rd Party Nowadays~~~

2011-08-13T13:24:00.008-04:00

I don't know how to put it in a non offensive way.

There's no definite right or wrong most of the time.

Especially when it's about a relationship that you're in.

I've read some news lately, and the news were just being too much.

Best examples that we learned were from those celebrity or people whose have names.

They are huge in the world, and the affairs that they've got were hot, pretty, and of course the common word which start with a 'b' in front.

Not only that, nowadays, these bunch of affairs were somewhat rampant.

Stealing people's husband yet they were rampantly and unshamely broadcasting to the world.

And one of my friend has encountered one lately.

A bf of years bailed on her by having an affair of 03 months behind her back.

I couldn't picture if i were in her place, how would i deal with it.

She mentioned she would forgive him.

Can i. By seeing tons of the rampant affairs now.

Let's take a look on these bunch of attractive, hot yet one who broke people's family.

They have all been described as the hooker by the foreign papers.

Rooney's (Helen Wood & Jennifer Thompson)

Tiger Wood's (Rachel Uchitel)

Jermaine Pennant's (Alice Goodwin)

David Beckham (Rebecca Loos)

Bill Clinton (Letwinsky), the ever classic over the history.

The affairs that these bunch of guys having were just brutal to their wife.

They were all building a good image at the outer, and just a turned, they have became the world known betrayal.

Affairs should be underground, yet nowadays, it didn't seems like it.

The above mentioned were world examples that people can barely not to know.

The topic of the affair seems so much interesting nowadays.

It's even in the drama series depicting being a nice wife is just not in the trend anymore.

Yet, being someone who wears nice clothes, who know how to social around, how to work their ass around the top are the one who are in the trend.

In the other ways to have encourage women, please do not work your ass around your husband or bf only.

But to look at the world with your own eyes, widen your sight and minds.

I'm definitely not asking you to defeat your soul mates, however, do live it with your own thoughts. Instead of being a full time housewife without own thoughts.

Guy dominating and manipulating whatever is it in you. Like what is in the Taiwanese series.

No matter how gals loathed about the affair that steal your man.

That's it. Work your ass to get whatever you wanted. Not whatever he wanted.

Gals mentality is always concentrating on WE WE WE.

However, guys are not, they were I I I.

Always remember this, be fair, if your guys were not on that street, he wouldn't have done this to you.

It's a two way street.

So, we've got to buck up!!!

Annoyance~

2011-07-22T13:15:00.007-04:00

It happened repetitively while i m having my off days.

It's annoying that people kept putting their filthy clothes or whatsoever things on your bed, the place that you sleep and rest.

But people put their filthy things there, while you are not around.

I might be very particular sometimes.

However, this is the basic respect that we should throw to each other. Especially when you are having roommates.

It's has gradually gets irritating whenever i opened the door and sees some filthy things on my white comforter.

My god, what is in her mind.

Besides of messing up my place, what more could she has done when i m not around.

No wonder everytime when i came back, i would like why my bed sheet is so dusty.

Now that i knew, every single time, she will be checking with me on my off days schedule.

And she will get it clean up when the time i am back.

Gosh.

She's all along not an organized person, can see from her work place and the tiny space that she lives.

However, she's messing up my place as well.

And it did piss me off thoroughly.

This is why i don't like sharing room, but got no choice.

Cause i m not eligible and qualified with the butter cup, therefore, i lose a chance moving to a space of myself.

Too bad. This is the cruel world.

Gosh. I seriously am not a roommate person.

A mesmerizing birthday~~~

2011-07-09T13:01:00.008-04:00

I was looking for an appropriate word to describe my birthday celebration this year.

It wasn't a blast for sure. It wasn't all surprised i would say.

However, it was with a lot of blessings and wishes...especially to be with the love one.

I have very different celebration all years long.

This year is special, with my dude on the list.

It wasn't surprised for the pre-birthday celebration. With the cake and the bunch of colleagues that i was with during my lunch and dinner almost every single working day.

What surprised me was the present that my colleagues who traveled with me gave me.

It was a passport that from the Macau panda place, which the panda gifted by China government as a gift.

That day was heavy rain, however, we made through to the panda place. It wasn't consider a zoo, it's a place specially created for the panda to stay and for people to visit.

They have written their wishes inside, and they started to prepare for this in such a long while surprised me the most.

It wasn't something expensive, however, it's something meaningful with warm heart.

Another one was from my dude, he just prepared for the pampering whole day on whatever i wanted to do.

He wasn't a romantic, however, when i have requested for a shopping spree during my birthday. He didn't object it.

As i knew he has loathed doing window shopping, and he would rather spend time resting at home.

Without whining nor complaining of exhaustion. He went through with me whichever i wanted.

Just wanted to convey my gratefulness here, though i have told him again and again for being how happy that he's with me while pampering me.

It wasn't easy for guy who don't like to do shopping yet have to do it for the whole day.

Starts my birth day with lots of sleep, then went to my favorite restaurant to fill our stomach.

We started my shopping spree til night, without my dude complaining or whining of exhaustion, but pampered me with love and a lot of shopping.

It felt really great.

We had our dinner at a Korean restaurant, thought the food wasn't as expectedly nice, however, it's okay.

The feel of happiness was intense with all the pampered and indulgence.

He was good to me all the while, however, he made me felt really intense that day.

With all the familiarity we had for each other.

We have also made it for the movie 'Mr. Popper's Penguins' after my craze in shopping for the day, and it was so funny. You guys should go for this movie. It was pretty funny and good.

Nevertheless, we have actually continued it for the second day.

He has been trying to look for me on the watch that i've been longing for during the night before.

I was pretty touched by what he did, though he's a lil bit of impatient when he trying to browse it and look for it. However, it's the sincerity that i saw somehow.

We have been looking through the watches that i've been fond of, and have chosen one eventually.

The experiences was good.

With my favorite food again for the second day shopping spree...

Thai food in the Garden.

However, just that it's a cherished that my dinner appointment with my close friends has been cancelled due to the rally road block on the next day.

That's what i've been grieving

This seems like an article to compliment how good he has treated me and so on.

Yeah, it is, and he's in fact reading my every blog post that i've written to understands better. And i m grateful to that.

It's overall a good one.

Vacation ~ Macau Again~

2011-07-03T12:37:00.013-04:00

Though have been to Macau earlier on, by end of last year, most of the memories still stayed fresh...

However, when my friends mentioned about the places that they were keen for, i have no memories at all...

Sadly said, i don't know i've even been to Macau before.

This is the bad sides of having a tour guide.

First and foremost, would have to re-emphasize that though Macau main financial source was from the casino, however, the whole gang weren't casino keener.

Some of the people that commented on our trips when they knew about us not gambling nor gambling nor gambling.

They showed their boring face with a word 'you guys are real boring and wasted the trip entirely'.

Which, this was not what we thought.

All of us didn't think our trip was bored, we have fun looking for food, have fun looking at the map, have fun looking for the places that we should and being recommended to visit.

Therefore, it depends on what type of person you are, and what kind of words or lines you should say.

Different people comes with different interest. That doesn't leads you to say that our trip wasn't fun but your trip that filled with gambling, gambling and gambling was fun.

However, no point arguing with this type of people. These kind of people is just having lower EQ that doesn't know how offensive they could be.

We should be sad for them in the other way.

Am trying to be a little bit helpful here, for those who will be heading off to Macau soon or in the near future. We have actually did some researches on Macau before we went. And it's not a very detail, but kinda hasty with all the info on hand.

For the first day, it would be pretty much hectic while we first arrived, to look for our hotel location and the transport to the hotel.

Previously we thought that maybe we might be able to hail some buses which belongs to the casino for a ride. However, we ended up with paying money with the ride of buses.

The hotel that we stayed in Macau, Ole London.

It's not a very star-rated hotel, however, it's clean and neat inside.

Besides, it's also nearby the streets and places that we are going to later within walking distance.

The first restaurant that we've entered was on our list, seems like we've been following our list all day long.

We have had it at '祥记'. It's their specialty, the 虾仔面 (little prawn noodle). Which we can't really see any prawns in it.

The plate size is as if we were having a piece of cake at the plate size for cake.

Besides, with this super classic bottle size coke.

Then we were heading to the famous/ historical places for visitors, it just filled with tourist.

Places that we've been for at a later time, for food.

The pepper biscuit, i never tried; my travel mate said it's pretty nice. However, we can't even finished the only one that we bought, because we seriously were way too full.

If you were a dumpling lover, you may tried the below mentioned.

I don't really know what's it called on the below cookies, in Mandarin it called, '金钱饼', translated to English would be 'Money cookies'. From a very old shop which located besides the pepper biscuit shop.

The curry fish ball were the nicest over Macau from the bloggers, i would vote for this.

I likes the curry fish ball with the mushy reddish.

Another place for high tea or dessert which was not bad shown as below,

It was raining for the rest of the days after the first day of heaty weather that we've experienced in Macau.

It was heavy rain when it's our second day of visit at Macau. Especially when we were planning for the panda house.

Guess not so much people knew there's panda house in the Macau; whereby people who been there previously still innocently asking us about the panda house.

After watching the DVD that introduced about how these pandas are precious, here gives you a little brief.

It was gifted by China, the pandas were sisters, and in order to have this panda house a hit on. Macau has spent lots of man power and sources in order to get the panda to stay comfortably; in the mean time, to make it into a visit place for tourist and children.

Therefore, Macau government has sent their people over to China to practice on how the experts taking care of the pandas and what do the pandas need.

Nevertheless, be prepared to take good care of the pandas when they arrived.

Another thing that would recommend to you guys would be the Margaret's Egg Tarts. It smells a road away. You could then picture how tasty would the egg tarts being.

And sure that we would have to line up for the 05 egg tarts that we have been looking for 3 days.

Finally get a bite of it.

Think i gotta penned off here.

These are the pictures that i've gotten in the memories folder that i had.

Overall, the trip doesn't seems too bad, the food weren't super nice if comparing with Hong Kong.

It's still a worth going & fun trip with the people that you are familiar with.

Having fun over the trip with the right friends was the important thing isn't it.

If you were like any of us that doesn't keen on gambling, however, don't mind sightseeing and experiencing what the casino is having.

The 21st Century Humiliation!!!

2011-06-14T13:42:00.004-04:00

This is such a joke to everyone i guessed.

At this 21st century,

Prince William from England married Kate Middleton.

Prince Harry from England as well, is dating Chelsy Davy.

Prince Albert from Monaco is marrying the South African Olympic swimmer, Charlene Wittstock.

The King of Bhutan, Jigme Khesar Namgyal Wangchuck is marrying his junior in university, Jetsun Puma.

The highest level people were gradually filled with commoners' blood stream.

From the century of Princess Diana as a kindergarten teacher marrying Prince Charles.

Grace Kelly married the Prince of Monaco, Ranier III.

What was the fussy about, when the so called 'highest level' people to be arrogant about anymore.

Lately, I have been bumping into the most ridiculous thing in my entire working life for almost 4 years.

The day before yesterday, my boss asked me about who is this person that i don't even recalled his name or her name from my network or contact list.

Yesterday, my boss mentioned to me that people has made complaint about you to our corporate president.

Which they would have to attend to it, because that person is complaining to our president, and pin pointing my name.

It's regarding a show that i was on, and i was looking for their company's support.

However, they have rejected us with the similar reasons that everyone is giving.

Then my superior sent me a text, obviously it's from my boss.

It said, according to our top management, this guy has made a complaint directly to our president about you. And the reason is he was unhappy and unsatisfied because the company has sent a junior level personnel to attend to his company's marketing manager.

I was shocked right away. What was that?

Because of my junior position in the company that made him felt ashamed.

It's a HE, and he was the owner of some fashion label. Therefore, it made him an arrogant bastard.

Actually this was pretty humiliating, it's not regards of whether a junior or a senior position to have attended you.

You talked as if you didn't been through the junior position.

People go through stages, and somebody is just not that lucky to be like you.

However, this doesn't leads you to look down on people this way.

Even though you are wealthy, so what.

It's non related to any of my working attitude or work information that i provided wrongly, it's just that i m a junior.

That you don't think i m eligible to even speak to you.

It happened when I was having my lunch yesterday, and i didn't have a good one, just because of some arrogant bastard that made rough of my day.

With all the texts haunting me, urging me to look out the emails that i've sent, pumping me with the words to have sought through my bad memory.

This was hard for me either, how would i know who did i attend to a month ago.

And my superior mentioned, it's fortunate that i m a well organized person who kept all my stuff. Which don't have to waste so much time into looking for it.

This is true. However, still, it was upsetting.

I have recognized through some other things towards this matter,

1) People would either by your side or throwing you cold feet. I've met both of these types at once.

2) People would show you support no matter what and try to unburden your stress by acting funny or talking funny.

I told one of my bestie about this, and they too can't believed with what i've been encountering.

With such ridiculous things. With people around me throwing me cold feet or pouring cold water above my head. With people around me who stands up and speaks for me the first moment. With people around me who hold my hand tight to comfort my anxiousness. And with people around me who did good jokes but i m not in the mood to pay attention.

Its just the 21st century humiliation from an arrogant bastard who was filthy rich.

Which is not acceptable. And my management obviously didn't do anything with it.

What my management advises, listen carefully people, they asked me to stay as far as possible from this company ever again.

In addition, asking me to tell the one surrounded me whoever will be approaching this fashion label, to stay away.

I was just a victim whom he get the chance to take on.

This is what my management response.

What a humiliation that I've ever encountered. This can really be a classic experiences.

A laughable week~~~

2011-06-12T13:09:00.006-04:00

Sarcastically i would say, it's a laughable week.

With all the events going on and cracking my head on getting organize with what go first.

I felt somehow helpless, however, i can felt nothing but to walk forward, and get my pace stable and fast.

With people who is at a more senior position than me, yet she has to consult me or seek for me, as a junior's advises.

Like what people commented, she didn't even look like a superior.

She just didn't have that charmed yet she was acting bossy.

As there are people who thought she should be the one, it has came out without a second thought who these bunch of people are.

There's one day that one of my other department colleague, asking me about this issue.

What i told him was that, i wasn't a person who buttered.

That's all i can said. If you get me, you will understands what i m talking about, if you are not, too bad. Give some thoughts on it.

I would say, i just couldn't shed that thought off simply.

Whenever people talks about it, i still felt a slight upset.

However, at the same time, when time goes by, i've felt better.

Whatever it is, this is the reality.

I would just have to learn how to let it go faster.

In addition, for a superior who thought she should be supervising or overseeing my work yet can't even care of her own ass.

I seriously don't know how to put it for her.

When it comes to work, please work your ass off.

Not by buttering, but by proving it to someone else.

When people gets certain return or on certain thing, it doesn't mean that you can work the same. While you are not the same person or you are not paying the same effort.

By just getting the credibility or trustworthy within few minutes, it could never happen in a corporate.

We have nothing to talk about, and definitely i wouldn't say we are friends that you can get your arm around my shoulder.

And please do get your own ways to build your network/ connections or to just pay more efforts on your work.

Depends on yourself instead of keep leaning on others.

When you first started the project, and decided to keep it secretive. Please do it, and continue doing it and don't involve anyone else.

Prove hard on yourself to have done it by yourself without whining for help eventually.

To have made yourself a victim. What is this.

I thought this was what you wanted initially to not needing others help except for both of you.

From what i've seen this time, you've again disappointed me that i thought you would be all on yourself.

Things lies clear under the eyelids.

Too bad you were again depending on someone else.

Obviously i've seen who are by you. By the way you acted, i m sorry to say that i m not impressed with it.

Congratulations at the same time. I m just not a butter piece.

Earn it yourself and prove it.

If you are not the material, i wouldn't deny you can be trained, however, you are still far behind from where you supposed to be.

You are just way too buttery and for what people has commented, a bit too creamy.

For me, i felt it's a laughable week.

Laughable by the way you acted, or overacted, or whatsoever.

Laughable by the way you dealt with things in your own ways and thought it should be running this way, yet it's not, and it's been proven.

Laughable by you don't even dare to sound once when people changing things last minute, though sometimes it's very hard when it came from the management; however, you don't have your stance, this make a point that people come to you last minute and you just do it.

Laughable by how shallow your thoughts could be.

Laughable by how you took all the credits whereby it's not from you.

Laughable by you wanting to snatch whatever people is having to have taken under your care in order to build more power over it; yet you can't care for your own ass like what i've mentioned earlier.

Maybe i m stubborn, but i do have my own ways defending things that i should or shouldn't.

Though things will always turn out how the management wanted, but, at least you let people know that you defended what rights you have.

Not to let people to simply manipulate you with all those lame reason.

It's not the way it works.

Therefore, it's just a laughable week for me that i don't even care to share my comment.

It's you who in charge. Shall see the way you in charged and how things turned out.

Over the cheap blings~~~

2011-05-25T12:27:00.012-04:00

Everyone has their own taste, it depends on whether the taste is of a high sides or lower sides.

Personal tastes are subjective.

What has me to say so.

Recently i saw some apparels, either dress or top that is bling.

I don't mind buying or wearing something that is bling.

However, not when it looks like a cheap bling.

It has reminded me with one of my friend, which i've been referring to a 'her' on my earlier post.

She just loved blings, whatever it's on the clothes, or phones accessories, or shoes.

She would choose blings over everything, and she did looks what we, Malaysian called 'Lala', which is a word to describe people that is sharing blings while carry with golden hair, and does not looked decent at all.

I couldn't deny her surface did look like one.

However, the blings aren't the same as what we've seen presentable or decent.

It's just low. I don't know how to put it.

She didn't carry it well.

Nevertheless, she added it with Burberry bags, LV bags, even Chanel on her list now; people would definitely having a perception to think that her bags were imitations.

I would just being nosily clarify this for her, that's real like the below that i showed.

Though it's a real one, however, you do need some charm to carry it out.

I am not saying that i m not a fan, however, i would consider myself as a decent one, instead of dumping all my salary into those brands, than having a stylist yet what you liked; instead of being a sole brand maniac...

I mean, brands sometimes doesn't mean anything.

If you're charmed enough, you carry everything well and brandish.

You don't really need a brand to carry your status or attitude out. Though it did somehow make you feel more confidence in an ego way.

From what i knew her for such long period of time, she has little knowledge about Chloe, Fendi, Cartier, Bottega Veneta, Kate Spade, Balenciaga, Hermes, Jimmy Choo or whatsoever brands which is on a higher level.

On the other hand, I wouldn't deny she's well aware of the 'street brands', like LV, Gucci, Burberry etc.

What i m trying to emphasize here is when you carry on hanging around at the clubs with your so called 'branded bags'. Consider twice.

While you decided to go with this Burberry, LV, or now Chanel image, you should really consider with the words you used, the friends you are with normally, that having open-ended swears in their lines.

Again, it doesn't matter whether you are carrying a street brand or higher end brands, as long as you carry out your own charm with the brand.

Even if you are a pub girl, who cares.

I remembered this as well that has happened on me, there's one old colleagues whose from a bad environment, she has been a pub girl previously.

She didn't buy the most expensive stuff, however, she wore it well. Even though it's some local brand.

As what i've mentioned, the environment is important.

You don't swear open-ended-ly or being rude to others once you open your mouth.

The upbringing & attitudes are well done. It should be fine after all. Who cares you are from a lower class nor middle class family.

It's all about your upbringing and how your attitude is to have carried out the brand that you are on.

It's simple philosophy isn't it.

Thereof, i still can't figure how would people think of carrying a branded bag or wearing brandedly would do good of anything.

Maybe it is a treat for yourself while you can afford it all by yourself, and not by other people.

That might be a symptom of pampering yourself with something you like rather than showing off to the whole world that you have had this super expensive bag;

It's not about the showing off, but eventually goes back to your attitude still...

If you remained your low attitude, your brand follows you!

Get your ass off my couch~~~

2011-05-22T12:52:00.003-04:00

If you think that being the superior can actually extending your power this way.

Kindly take it back as fast as you can before i seriously shoot you right on your face.

Whereby a superior need to consult a subordinate most of the time doesn't really seems right to me.

Seriously, if you are really that piece of material, wouldn't people show you a little bit of respect instead of keep on wondering why are you on that position.

Furthermore, need to seek for advice and contacts most of the times from my end, i thought you are so smart that you can manage everything by yourself.

Instead of busy buttering people.

I m seriously pissed with what i m doing now.

Nothing seems to be interesting to me now.

My passions have gradually faded followed by the career stagnant.

Nothing much that can inspired me from what i've seen.

Therefore, my pace would have to move faster, however, it doesn't seems like it.

I would just have to urge myself or force myself to just move my pace faster.

The most importantly, to hope for the best and luck.

Luck seems to be a very important thing after all these years.

I wouldn't say that i m not having any luck.

However, it's just making me disappointed still.

My Habits Remained!

2011-04-27T12:05:00.004-04:00

Recently have not been so much in a good mood.

Felt so unproductive at work, and some thoughts to have had a long vacation instead.

To simply rest my mind and body.

Today I was talking to one of my client, and heard from him that, he ran into one of my ex-coworker, and he mentioned to me that, people who worked at my workplace will come down having a cheerful face and mood.

Due to our working system, and resting system, which we gets four days rest in a row and work a continuously of 26 days in particular.

Everything have to be on our own caring hands, cause we would have to be somewhat multitask as well.

This was what he told me earlier on today when i spoke to him.

I felt something appears visibly, cheerful.

How long have i been cheerful when i am at my work.

All along, i've been on the American series.

But today, it felt somehow different.

I just checked out my blog post.

I found that i've remained the only thing that i've always been doing in the US.

Blogging.

Until now, i still remains this habit.

And i am glad that i remain this very habit.

Replacement of the exhaustion

2011-04-26T11:56:00.006-04:00

Today wasn't good for me, there's a bit of a bumped, at my own working progress.

This is regarding work, if you happened to have some comments, please do make it very clear and simple. Instead of dragging it to the thoughts of it can be better, or it has something new came up to have included.

Keeping quiet doesn't make any sense on assisting at all.

It shouldn't be any of this way.

People who doesn't belongs to your crowd wouldn't get what you meant.

Please do not act smart if you are not the smart ass that i've mentioned it earlier on.

It will just make you looked dumb in front of the insiders.

Suddenly, the exhaustion and boredom invaded me out of no where.

It will leads you to a state that you don't feel like working, nothing seems productive at point, and you don't know what were you thinking. Or you will react very slow.

Felt so meaningless working hard.

It's nothing, it doesn't seems like i would get any career advancement by working hard.

So, what's the point.

I just came back very early from my work place, rest myself by talking to my mom and my friend, then my dude.

It's a fortune to have them still or always.

This seems to be the thing i wanted lately.

A vacation. A long one in specific. Which i never get the chance for.

I knew i seems to just came back from a vacation, why would i so yearning for another one so quickly.

I should be re-energized by coming back from the recent vacation.

However, it doesn't seems like it.

Vacation is never enough, especially when you started your working life.

The phobia towards working the same old shit everyday, nothing challenges comes up for the near future.

Things don't seems to be too hard, however, the feeling has been different.

Always felt sleepy, can't get to wake up in time in the morning anymore.

There's no motivation, except for working for the only thing which survives me well.

Except for that, i can't think of anything worth working for.

Don't know why.

Maybe i will get better, or i will have to speed up on choosing another path before it's getting too late.

But, it's never too late to go for another challenge as long as you are determined.

Getting out from our own comfort zone isn't an easy job, i would say.

You would have to think for a lot of things. In order to not letting yourself feel a single bit of regret or to let you feel that you are choosing right.

Simple as that.

As long as you got out of it, you are utmost fine.

I always believed that, as long as you are willing to put on effort to get out of your comfort zone, no matter what is it in front of you, you are able to cross over the bump.

Looks like i would have to shout that to myself too.

It's almost time to get off my comfort zone and land myself in another zone which will be comfort later.

If you're not smart, do not act

2011-04-23T12:40:00.002-04:00

I knew a friend, who likes to act smart by herself and thought that is the best way.

Because her ways are best ways.

I just found it so hilarious.

Later then, i found another one, followed by another one.

Why do you want to act smart, while all the while people can see it from what you are doing, which obviously showing that you are not.

Seriously, it's no joke. When you are not that smart, please do not act it, cause people who are observant, they knew exactly your trick.

And it will then be a joke behind your back.

Which you will be a clown by then.

The friends that i mentioned above, unfortunately, they are all 'SHE'.

I will be going story by story.

This friend of mine always put high expectation on the whole bunch of us.

For instance, she would expect the whole bunch of us to have invited her to all our gatherings and trips we had annually.

However, we definitely disappointed her one time by one time.

Once, i felt bad towards her. However, at a later time, i just thought that sometimes, it's really not big a deal that you would actually frust at.

It's just a small matter in our eyes, maybe, for her, it's different.

She's kinda undecisive, especially when it comes to figures.

If you are not a generous person, don't act.

You are not a generous person yet everyone knew it, and you have to act generous, and act don't care, how hard it would be for you.

We always have an annual trip between a few of us, however, she always missed it.

Not because we don't want to include her in, it's her undecisiveness which caused her, and her generosity to have made the whole circumstances turned bad.

The matter of fact, we still continue our trip annually even without her.

Whatever she said were just empty promised that all of us wouldn't treat it as real.

Therefore, later whatever it is has became hoax.

Furthermore, she likes sharing with us about her job, how good it was, and it turned out to be just exactly the opposite and she would silent herself for sometimes, or twist/ divert the subject.

This is weird, when people don't really want to dwell on it, and you kept dwelling, when it's about your own, things get difference.

She would always complain behind our whole bunch, and tell us in front with some ironic words.

What does she thinking about.

Another case is also a 'she'.

It's a she that i knew not so long ago.

She's such a pretender, but thought her impostor personality wouldn't be tear off or find out by people.

I don't know whether she knew it herself, or she just again, to pretend that she don't know.

Just a piece of advice for people who is having this kind of situation. Please beware.

I would in the other way, complimenting them having such a high EQ.

What she would do is normally act behind, or just show how smart she is in front of all people, however, everyone in the same place knew she's not.

Sad case is she's just fooling herself around.

While things happened, she would naturally push it to somebody else.

She wouldn't be at the wrong side at all, however, everyone knew her pattern or personality of scape goat-ing people.

This wasn't the first time it occurred.

Everyone knew her pattern, it's too easy to be found.

She still thought that she's the smartest, due to her high marks from the college.

No wonder she's having this thought, even though those didn't graduate with high marks would think they are at the smart sides. Whereby they are not.

Smart will not be complimented by yourself but it will be from others.

The third one would be, another 'SHE' again.

How come the all three of them are all SHE.

I am not having any gender disparity here. I m just telling you the truth that, most of the 'she' can be this bitchy at times. whereby not all of the ladies are tolerable.

Even if you are at the seniority position, if there's no one show you the least respect, you are not smart then.

Whatever you are owning right now has been a well known thing for all.

If you didn't respect yourself for such glory, no one will.

Currently, she's trying to utilize her so called 'power' of the seniority, however, too sad to say, no one buys it.

Not even the new comer.

What i would say is, if you didn't use your power wisely, but thinking to have dwell on everything that people do; intervene on whatever stuff that is big and small; and think that you should know.

Then i m sorry, you seriously are just acting smart rather than understanding or observing the whole situation.

I mean, not only acting smart, this is not the smartness you should act.

At least, sparing some ethics.

The least smart is to respect yourself.

Seriously, you've gotta earn it by yourself!

2011-04-08T09:59:00.003-04:00

I've got a friend who now seems to be like a porn star to me.

Seriously, it's a she, and she has been doing something very weird lately.

Weird as in she would do something abnormal, maybe it's somehow the mindset issue.

She has been brought up at a divorce family, with just the grandmother, with father neglection, mother re-married to somebody else bringing the brother and to ask for money from her all the time, with a husband who pampered her a lot.

She's from this kind of family background.

When she's a grown up, she started taking drugs, pondering at the clubs all night long, even though she's now a mother, karaoke all the time, it never changed her from becoming a mother of a son.

A mother that don't required to look after her son, but to shop, to complain, to gossip, to swear all the times, to club all night long and all week, taking drugs.

That can made her complaint this much about how tiring she was by looking after her son for a few short hours during the night while her mother in law is making dinner for the whole family.

I was wondering, what is this.

I was upset looking at my friend this way, what has she turned herself into.

Why would i say she looks like a porn star now, why has this word occurred to me.

Because of a series of her pictures.

She's no longer young, and she's not a chick that can have flings or can flirt around.

She's a mother, she's a wife, she's a daughter-in-laws.

However, she doesn't seems to care at all.

Morally and with Asian mindset, she's not a girl that everyone would like.

Or maybe porn star is just too big a word to have described a lady. It sounded a bit humiliating. And she doesn't seems minding at all, otherwise she wouldn't get herself into this series of seductive pictures.

However, she thought that her picture series has earned her the compliments.

Look at who are the one who made the compliments, full of swears. My god. or maybe i am just too conservative.

She let people think that she doesn't even know what she's doing now, and what she should do now.

As i said, she's no longer a youngster anymore.

Even with all the lines of Louis Vuitton that she owned or Burberry range that she has.

So what. A lot of aunties in the market owned it as well.

What's the point of owning it, but don't even know how to pronounce it correctly, or i would put it another way.

Just to own it because others own it, and some of them can't even afford it.

It's not what you earned it for yourself, but in another way to have humiliated yourself.

I doubted this is what she wanted.

In fact, she did it all by herself.

Who is she, i don't really think i knew her anymore.

She seems so strange to me, not a bit of familiarity.

Whatever it is, no matter what brands you carried, you are the one who will be carrying the style, the personality, the character, the taste.

If you don't have the above mentioned, you are just carrying the LV like what the market auntie normally have, and called it as LV instead of the full name.

Cause they don't even know how to call it in full.

She's now this shallow to me, yet she's just a stranger that i don't even feel like contacting now.

This is kinda disappointing.

Vacation Part II

2011-04-04T11:48:00.010-04:00

From what we've stopped from the last episode.

To have just introduced the whole resort.

There's a lot of things to do at the resort, but i was just too exhausted to have thought of anything.

However, the thing that i've done most in the resort would be 'sleeping'.

I slept through the night, until the morning, and until a little bit over noon.

It has to be all contributed to the lovely bed that the resort prepared for us.

Nevertheless, i did have my breakfast everyday, and it was exuberant.

Fortunately, i was having a super thoughtful dude, who took in the breakfast from the doorway, and woke me up for breakfast, then let me sleep through again after the breakfast.

This was the ever first time that i slept through this way.

I was seriously exhausted. Simultaneously felt so sorry for my dude, it's his birthday, however, i spent half of the time sleeping.

The below picture was what the resort has prepared for us.

I could then understand why the first question that the service crew asked was 'when's your big day'. Because we took the honeymoon suite. Lol...

It's not really a beach place, however, it's a place to relax mentally and physically; or can we called a place for retreat.

With some nice scenery in sight.

These were the main act from the whole so called 'honeymoon' trip.

It was overall a nice and pleasant trip. There are actually a lot more pictures. However, I've problem uploading more due to the line stability.

Forgot one last thing, my dude will definitely get to read this,

Happy Belated Birthday!!!

And i suddenly felt so glad that Tioman Island is at closure that period of time due to the monsoon, later only we got to know this place and decided to go for it. With no regrets.

Worth trying it out if you are looking for a retreat place.

Vacation

2011-03-30T22:05:00.005-04:00

Whenever you are able to get away from your hectic life to have enjoy a vacation, it's always a good thing to share.

After school days, it's very hard to get together with your long time friends or families to have gone for a vacation.

In the Asian countries, most probably because it's all due to work, no time to go for a vacation or it's of expenses issues due to too big of a family.

Asian families will look upon the work and expenses more when it came to vacation.

Everything has been listed in considerations.

However, in the Western countries, people are most probably willing to go wherever they would like, no matter what.

Western families will make times. Because it's life.

The above examples were just to depict how people live their life.

I've been all along wanting to live in the Western culture, though i was right now in a super hot country which doesn't even carries any wind during the heat.

And here, i've gradually pursue one by one with my own hands.

I didn't encourage anything here.

However, am cultivating a thought or mind to have think this way.

We do need a rest when it's time for a rest or so called the vacation.

I've been working with a company that allows me to have flexible off days. Therefore, can make work of my vacation.

When my friends seen the pictures in my fb, it's like everyone of them dropping me a message commenting about my vacation.

It's my dude's birthday, and we celebrated in a romantic honeymoon suite.

For me, it's luxury if i was a student, i might not be able to afford all these kind of lux.

However, it's once in a while.

It's not only about luxury, it's about enjoying the scene, the service, the people, the breeze, the beach, the sun, the room, and the feel.

I am actually very much a beach person. I love being at the beach, listening to the wave, getting the sun.

The services we gotten there, i would recommend you guys to go. It's worth going if you were a beach person that like what i've mentioned above.

It's a resort called, Damai Laut Swiss Garden Golf & Spa Resort. I forgot the full name.

I've been there for 3D2N.

Didn't do much there but relax. Seriously, doing nothing. Only relax and rest my mind.

I rested all day long, with my dude bringing in the breakfast from the door step without waking me up.

Slept through all night and half a day without hearing my dude's complaint. I was very grateful about that.

Cause it's his birthday whereby we should just celebrate all day long til the exact day.

And the staff have actually prepared us with events that filled our days there.

A lovely sunset viewing, a romantic dinner at the pool side, a surprise bubble bath at night, a thoughtful service crew standing by all the time during the dinner.

I've a very fruitful vacation without much troubles by getting a ring from the work. Surprisingly the reception for the mobile there was good.

Therefore, you can save the worries of unable to get any reception. It's way too good.

One of the things that would urge me for a 2nd visit would be their services.

They are having very good services.

From the front bell services to the reception of the hotel to the spa and restaurant.

The service crews were hanging with their warm smile.

You wouldn't feel too corporate or commercial.

I shall just continue with the next episode then. It seems to be a little too long winded here.

I'm not the right fit.

2011-03-20T13:45:00.003-04:00

Last Thursday was the reviewed of my senior position after the 6 months probation according to my superior.

When i first received the email, i was wondering what is this about. Since i m not going in for any of the interview session, this will be it.

One of my colleague told me that your hard work will earn you the position, therefore, work harder.

Needless to say, everyone would think work harder will earn you the position.

However, i was so wrong about this.

It's not. And later, i seriously don't think i will be a right fit for this as well.

I was pretty nervous about it, my wishful thoughts led me to the way that, as long as you hard proved that you are eligible and capable, you are one of it.

I was being told for their first line, 'you're not the one, i am sorry. And we think that you still have rooms for improvement'.

I was pretty calmed then, however, when they told me why i m not the right fit, i seriously don't know how to describe my feeling at that point of time.

I would like to leave right away.

'Because your communication skill is not good enough, and you aren't comfortable meeting new people'. This was the reason i've been defeated by the other candidate.

According to what i've heard and understood from my direct superior.

You didn't been chosen because you don't know how to please us or socialize with us.

Therefore you are not the right fit.

I was stunned by her reason, it was all bullshit, i couldn't accept it at all. What is this about?

By facts & figures, i've lead way ahead; by socialization skills, the basic communication skills that i've possessed; by accounts, i've been leading way ahead.

I can't figured out why am i not been chosen, but a person who socialized very well among their own gang without any work proven been the right fit.

The below was how i answered my direct superior when she asked me do i have anything else to say,

'Yes i do, i've been very confidence in my work wise, and i've tried my very best into doing anything. Furthermore, i've hit every single goal in work that i've set for myself, therefore, i do think that i've nothing much to say other than the above mentioned.'

The reviewers tried to mend up the situation, to bullshit me again on brushing up my skills.

Last but not least, this was how i told them before i left the room, while they stayed quiet without my smiley face or the expressionless face.

'If you have nothing else, i would have to excuse myself as i m still have something to busy with. Thank you very much.'

If the reason was somehow work related, i don't mind being defeated by the candidate.

However, it's an everyone known thing.

Though i've knew this would be the truth, i just can't helped to feel disappointed towards the person who made this decision.

I've nothing much to say, since you've made your choice, i will as well.

Its needless to send whoever to talk to me, the frust within my breath can't be dismissed within short period.

All sounded like bullshitting to me, what does socializing skill meant?

If you socialized without a result, which you kept mentioning about the result with socializing skills. Please do not draw my achievement back due to over achieved.

While the team target wasn't there, it showed only one thing, the other one are not doing what they supposed to.

Instead of drawing back my achievement, and put it somewhere else, to have bullshitted me with some crap.

If my socialization skills were at the so called quality/ standard, please do showed me how.

I seriously pondered how.

If my work doesn't carries any weight, please, i don't think i fit into this position as well.

Let those people who fits into this position to have it.

When you knew that i was very unhappy with your decision. You can chose to ignore it.

I will still do whatever i have to, however, no more hard work.

Cause the work doesn't carry any weight, only the socialization skills that you have to posses, or have to learn how to please your superior more will get you the promotion.

I seriously can't do it, i'm somehow ego, and i've my own principle. I am so sorry to say.

For the next time, according to the direct superior, i would have to stands out from another two new junior, which i don't think i will anymore.

Cause again, if work doesn't carry any weight, please do not waste my time, and i do not want to as well.

You guys don't have to treat me differently just because i have not been selected.

It's even needless that you've asked the management to speak to me, what has been done has been done, so what more to say.

I was disappointed due to the crap that you don't even want to utilize your brain to structure it. Which it has been highlighted by you on BOTH of us.

And you were telling me that i m not the right fit due to this.

What a joke, don't you think.

It's an Exhausted week~~~

2011-02-20T20:59:00.006-05:00

Life sometimes can be very exhausted.

Vacations never seems to be enough.

Sleeps never seems to be enough either.

So did work, never seems to have finished or completed at one point.

Sometimes, you wouldn't have anticipated anything on your job. As there's nothing to be hoped for in return.

For instance, to get promoted, or arise of your salary.

These are things that normal people would hope for, we worked for a living, and of course, the perks in work has included of promotion and increment on salary.

This will be a practical way to have motivated people to work harder, and move forward.

However, most of the times, it doesn't comes this way.

It became vague.

It has been shadowed by people, who made it vague.

It should be the easiest thing, as in, when people work hard and earn results, like it or not, she/he gets a fair promotion.

However, this world doesn't run this way.

Favoritism came first, that's why it shadowed those people who are really working hard and want to fight for their own promotions and increment in salary.

Too bad, it's hard either, cause the so called 'top management' has shaped their image towards certain human being's behavior.

I've gotten a friend, a long time friend that i knew her through my internship.

She is the most senior in the team on way back, however, she's not being appreciated due to favoritism issue.

She's experienced, she's hard working, she's turning out the result, she has been a great helper in the team, however, she's not being appreciated due to favoritism.

She has worked for 4 whole years, witnessing people coming in and out.

And, she left eventually.

Nothing much to have been memorized about except for the friendship she has gotten here.

It's sad isn't it.

When you have worked through following exhausted week, however, due to favoritism, you didn't get anything in return.

It's upsetting and depressing.

It usually happened in the Chinese company which demanded a lot from the employees, however, don't really appreciate for what they did for the company.

Most of the times, favoritism stands a very high position, if you are likable, you will be escalating your career very fast; vice versa.

Therefore, it's somehow exhausted working with this kind of company which do not appreciate any of the effort that the employees have been contributed.

This is how Chinese company gain loss of the talented employees. Remaining only those who can socialize the management will do the company good.

This has been the principle always.

Not worth wasting time working with a non-appreciated company.

Sighed...this is life..exhausted life.

Waiting~!~

2011-02-18T13:36:00.004-05:00

I've not been these deprived previously...

Have been a bumper in work lately...especially when everything is beyond what you can control or have a say.

Just i realized that we are not allowed to have thoughts anymore, though some tiny biny simple things in work, that we used to think we can be dependable and work our things independently.

It doesn't seems to turn out that way.

Very minor thing needs to go through the management, everything did. Everything is about protocol again.

However, simultaneously, we are getting an instruction to have contribute more creative into works and have more thoughts to share.

It's just a laughable conflict over the things people were saying.

Or, can i called it a hoax, a beautiful hoax that covered superficially.

Seriously, everything is about waiting, waiting and waiting.

It's not a healthy way to do things, or people would just claim it as a corporate way of doing things.

When you tell people about that, others whom are not in the situation, would give you cold shoulder.

And your boss at the same time won't back you up, this is the saddest thing to say.

Not that upset can simply describe how you felt at that moment.

It's not a word that can carries out the feeling anymore. Cause it's not only that.

It has piled up with a lot of things.

People who surrounded you didn't support you, people who worked with you has thrown you around, people who says rather than action, people who should back you up but didn't.

With all of these above mentioned criteria in a company, it's kinda sad to have even mentioned it.

However, put it another way, though you have been feeling depressed for a while.

It made you stronger at the same time, though the depression period wasn't easy to get over.

This is how cruel society is. Somehow, this is a better version i would say.

Cause it's still bearable.

Full of Doubts!!!

2011-02-13T12:52:00.004-05:00

I've just bumped into some issues that doubted me lots.

There's a co-worker which we speculated her as an attention seeker.

An extreme one.

This has been the case that i've never met before.

Or maybe i m too shallow, or too closed minded til i met her.

When i first knew her in person, she's somewhat sweet and friendly.

She disclosed her private family matters to us when she's dining with us, all of a sudden.

Which before that, she already mentioned to another co-worker that she has lost her mom, and her family matter has been really complicated that she doesn't wanted to talk about.

Later on, she told us that she has been coming from a broken family.

The family contained of violence as well, which she needed to earn money for her own schooling and also the whole family.

Whereby the stepfather has been treating her so badly til she left the home, but still have to go back to give the stepfather money.

And, she didn't tell us four only, later on we found that she has been telling everyone in the company her story.

Logically thinking, this is your private family matters, do you have to disclose it to the whole office.

That's pretty weird, when i have a painful past, i wouldn't want it to be mentioned at all.

Or i will only be telling the closest coworker or friends, so that i have a person to tell in the future if i have anything wrong or needed help with.

She's not.

Then she told the whole world that how poor her aunt has treated her.

That year when her aunt passed away, she cried like a somebody.

Telling the whole world again that, her aunt has been treated her so good as her closest daughter.

We don't buy her stories, and she suddenly became a different person.

She has been distanced herself from us, she won't dine with us, won't talk to us, as if we were the one who boycotting her.

Some people has found it with her, and sooner distance from her story.

Can't believe whatever she's telling. Even the current best friend of her has been mentioning, he has been very fed up with her.

They are having communication break down.

Now, she has been mentioning this painful story again to everyone.

She has been raped.

It just sounded so ridiculous, all she needed was to earn some sympathy over the whole crowds and pay attention to her.

Otherwise, she didn't need to turn a big round to tell everyone that she has been raped.

People was worried initially, however, when some necessary questions turned on, she has been stuttering about it, and without any answer cause she tried to avoid answering it by didn't hear anything.

She stood up and left without a word. This was what she chose to do.

It's obvious that she didn't know how to answer, cause the things that she told was different and there were flaws that wasn't sounds too logic and normal.

But more of like drama series that we usually watched.

It sounded ridiculous.

Nobody knew whether this is true. Or i should put it, nobody is interested to know whether it's true anymore.

She made herself into this situation.

If one day, something bad really happened on her, i couldn't imagine how the story gonna looks like.

All i can say is, if she needed these kind of news in order to seek for people's attention to earn the care or concern, it's just pathetic.

A Peaceful Vacation without your BB~~~

2011-02-08T07:24:00.007-05:00

After started working, this seems like the only things that i hoped for.
It's actually a pathetic things to have mentioned, all i need is just a simple peaceful vacation without any disturbance.
However, it's hard i would say.
When the calls starting to come in in the early morning, your hope will becomes pathetic.

It's no exaggeration, when your last day (meaning a day before your off days), it'll normally be a not so peaceful or smooth working day.

Things will normally happen, or goes wrong on that particular days.

Following by the calls from the workplace, either one of your colleague will follow up every of your job for you, and call you for more details when things goes wrong.

Besides, if you are the senior level, things won't be easy either.

You are not getting any space for yourself, even when you are walking, you would have to hand held your BB (Blackberry) with you.

The issue here is, it's irritating.

When people have written all the follow up in the email itself. That's it. Or take the initiative to find out what's the status for the other things that comes up suddenly.

Instead of kept on buzzing people about the status.

It's not necessary to work during the off days.

However, responsibilities takes all the grounds.

It's hard to not reply or ignore the calls or texts from the workplace.

And it usually made the whole vacation in worse case, whereby, you answer the first call, the second comes in.

Even when you are out for coffee during your off days, it's not fully your off days.

Your BB is still in your hand.

The normal expression for BB in your hand, is always work. work. and work.

The norm for BB holders, head held low, looking at the BB.

Fingers moving, to have type something or emailing.

The following motion will be to look outside whatever transport that you are on, to have the expression to think thoroughly.

That's the look man!!!

People in the office knew it's not so nice to call or bug ppl especially they are on their vacations or off days for rest.

Not nice, however, no choice.

That's why i called it pathetic.

And some people don't even spare a courtesy of not calling or bugging during people's off days, that's certainly not nice.

For these line of people, it's just not thoughtful enough, all they thought of is just to settle their on hand job.

When your working life turned into the one i described above, you are one of it, people.

Like me, who always hope for a peaceful vacation or off days.

Simply non disturbance.

It will be as simple as it is.

Good luck.

Again. It's never fair!

2011-02-08T07:22:00.003-05:00

There are always people complaint about life's not fair.

Here comes the truth, it's never fair buddy.

Nothing will comes in so fair for each and everyone of you, which has including me.

It's never fair in the world has always been heard, however, it has never pops up my mind.

However, it did on last Sunday when i was home.

I felt it so deeply through my heart that the world has never be fair to everyone.

It happened last week, and early this week.

One at work and another at home.

Supposedly unfair issues always occurred in the work place, especially work place that carried politics.

When you are about to get back home, it should be a matter of happiness.

However, we are not, we are always worried about our superior or clients' calls or texts that we can't 'not' reply.

It's even more pathetic when you are the unfavored one, people will normally treat you slightly bad than the favorable one.

Do you agree with me.

They will text you when you are in good mood having your holiday, however, one text ruin your whole day.

And they will simply ask something that they knew the status or they need another more updated status.

Whereby the more updated status is not quite possible when it's a public holiday and everyone goes on vacation or off days.

Does it sound logic to you. I don't.

Why do you have to just repeat the same old things when there aren't any updates.

It gradually becomes annoying and irritating.

However, you can't do anything either, because that person who kept asking you about things and updates is your superior.

Even though you loathed her/ him a lot, she/he is still the superior.

When you found your job slightly bored, and slightly not challenging, and slightly no directions.

Maybe your mind is heading you somewhere.

Especially towards resigning.

My advice, for who that wanted a resignation. Simultaneously, you are having some commitment on hands, just that the politics that you can't hold it.

Hold your breath, work it on, though the symptoms above have just shown you right.

While at the same time, land yourself another job before you hand in the letter.

This is the rational way.

Cause you still have commitments. It's not impossible to have landed a new job with better benefits or pay.

It's somehow about the working environment.

When you get used to certain places, and you are comfort being there, that will become your comfort zone.

You will naturally being dependable to your comfort zones, and it's pretty hard to get your ass off the comfort zone actually.

We can easily put it this way. I am experiencing it now, or can said that i m actually in it now.

Like what people always said, we have been spoon fed well. And it's hard for us to get off our comfort zone.

It do needs time to decide and get off it and build a new one later.

I can understands that, it's no easy job, however, if you have decided or whatsoever, just remember, it's never going to be fair.

I am certainly not encouraging anything here. But, what i am trying to emphasize here is to let you have a thorough think.

Think of what you want, and how you want it.

Life is short, this is what i've always been telling myself.

And nothing in this world has been fair.

This is what we can't help with, but to try attain whatever we can.

Initially when i started working, i have put whole lots of passion into my job.

However, later on, i've learned one very important thing.

When you don't have the social network, everything is hard for you, and people will be hard on you as well.

Everything has turned into grey area, cause you are in grey area.

Nevertheless, it depends on yourself to get out or not.

That's where the unfairness came from actually, cause everyone is depending on the social network they have had.

Just take it easy, things will pass and you will find the edge of the grey area and crawl out from there.

I've been out from there i'd say, and things have gone easier.

Though sometimes, some unfairness that you couldn't prevent happen, i have been telling myself to take it easy.

Cause, again, it's never fair. So, take it easy.

A note for people who vandalize my chat box!!!

2011-01-22T13:01:00.004-05:00

It's been a long while since i m on my blog post.

First thing, thanks for those who always been on my page and been liking what craps that i spit out here.

Been so supportive along the way.

Just that have been pretty busy at work, and don't really have time for this.

Whenever i post it, the mood is right.

My post always blow with the mood that i m having before or after or right now.

And i've realized a lot of people have actually dropping me some friendly message or lines...

For those who are not interested in my page, please do not vandalize my chat box.

It's annoying.

You have overshadowing others who really wants a thought or word.

Please do not do that. Thanks for your co-operation.

Vacation with your Dude!

2011-01-22T12:15:00.004-05:00

I've just read an article online, which the title has drew my attention...
It's somehow interesting...this is especially for gals...
If you are interested to read my piece, scroll your mouse.

The title wrote, 'Too Soon for a Vacation with the New Dude?'
Will run you guys a synopsis on the article.
It's too soon to take a vacation with your new dude when you are just been with the person for not more than three months time.
However, it showed two different thoughts inside; for guys, it doesn't really matter if we really breaks up within the trip or something, cause i m pretty close with her friends too, we are still friends.
For gals, it will seems awkward, or we can still be friends for that period of time. Since we have already been hanging out at this point of time.

What do you think?
Is it too soon for new couples to travel or go for a vacation together.
When you got into the stage, you would certainly expecting something to happen, isn't it.
Or else why are you in a relationship, when you are not ready to settle down or something.
For me, i seriously think that it will somehow helps working out the whole relationship.
In ways like, when you feel there's nothing much inspiring, or nothing exciting anymore.
This will be the time, though it's just a very short three months.
However, times shouldn't be too much a problem or an issue.
As you can get the chance to know more about your partner.
How does he live his life usually? How does it looks like when he's lying besides you all day long or all week long.
It's sorta consider half cohabitation during the vacation.
Eventually you get to know better. If not, it's very hard to know anything if you don't even willing to go for a trip with your dude.

Either you are not ready, or he's not ready, mentally.
To have each other besides, to have watch every moves of his, every habits he's having, he's eccentric or not, or he's particular in something, or how he's treating you all day when you are together with him.
Despite alone with him or with the friends.
It's all about observation, for the first vacation.
You observe. He do.
Interesting isn't it.

Furthermore, i do believed this is what usually gals thought of, will it be too fast that you go into a relationship and go on a vacation with your new dude.
If you don't even go on a vacation with your new dude, how are you going to know him further or you guys are compatible with each other.
Or you are the one who is afraid of letting him know further, or your bad habits, or your eccentrics towards certain things, that you don't want your dude to know so early.
However, put it this way, it's just the beginning, you're still at a very initial stage.
If you don't try out everything that you would like to know, how are you going to face him later, when you are getting too deep with him.
How are you going to pull yourself out from him or away from him.
If he loves you, things will work out from both ways. This is what i believed.
All the awkward circumstances should be done on the first or second month. And third month should be the first sweet vacation month.
However, it varies by person.

I knew a couple who has been together with each other for seven years.
Throughout the seven years, they have broke up once or twice, however, they got back together every each time.
Eventually, after seven years, they called it off.
What a cherish isn't it. Therefore, cherish whatever you have now. Stop those craps on vacation with your new dude is awkward stuff.
Work your ways out, and you will get there. Get yourself comfortable, and get your dude comfortable.
If it can work out fine, it will work out fine. If it can't work out, meaning it can't. Like my friends.
After seven years, they were still parted.

It's all about life~~~Take care...

Everything in life is unexpected~~~

2010-11-28T12:26:00.004-05:00

Realized a lot of things would have just happened unexpectedly~~~
When you have lived your life with a person for so long, and you broke up with the person, due to incompatibility or misunderstanding...

Wouldn't it sound cherish!
You can't even have the chance to hit the core, and lock down yourself with the person. It will be sad for those who owns a long time relationship but end up with no outcomes. You will lead to a new leaf of life without this person hanging in your life.
Spare this thought instead of keeping yourself upset all the time.
I don't think if there's a 2nd choices, people would want to choose this path.
The break up path is no easy for everyone.
I happened to see a quote that touches my heart which i would like to share with you guys,

Forget the times you walked by;
Forget the times you've made me cry;
Forget the time you held my hand;
Forget the sweet things if i can;
I can no longer pretend, i have to remember now that you're just a friend

How sad would that be, if someone you knew thoroughly has turned into just a friend???
How would you react?

It's definitely a sad thing to say.
Especially while you are with this guy/girl for certain years; and suddenly, broken up and get with another parties.
How sad this would be.
The person that you knew for so many years, so familiar like a family member, and now broken up, straightaway picked up fast and get with another one.
If you were the one, how would you feel.
Therefore, everything in life is so unexpected!!!
Unexpected to the extend that you can't really locked down with one promise or commitment while you are not ready.
Face it, this is the only way to have walk further.

It's another Winter!

2010-11-04T13:29:00.003-04:00

When i browsed through the website that i used to one year ago, it was just the right time for me to get winter clothes.
Today, while i accidentally browsing through the website, just come to a realisation that I've been missing my white winter so badly.

I used to have the white winter just one year back, right outside my window.
Still remembered by that time, i was still complaining about the white winter to my cousin & my friends...that was just too much snow, we couldn't even move ourselves out from the house.
But to stay at home, sitting in front of the couch, holding a hot cocoa, watching whatever the TV shown.
Have to always shovel it half an hour before i got out from home, and kept on complaining on the shoveling job.
I can't even bear to picture now, it has been leaving me so far away.

A hot cocoa that will always come in time, while i need warmth.

I've missed that snow so much. Missed the couch, missed the hot cocoa, missed the TV show, even the shoveling job, though it wasn't in my first missing list, however, it's still in the list.
Very hard to get over it, while being emotional. And that's the life i wanted so badly.

The weather is getting colder now, and it has shown me vividly that it's winter time in the States.

Night time for the winter easily gets dark, and people will rush back to home once it's getting to the night time, though it's just 4 or 5pm.

Sooner or later, will hear jingle bell ringing soon. I can recalled that when i was young, i used to enjoy Christmas a lot, as i always believed that i will have my white Christmas one day.
Yeah, i did have it the previous year when i was still in the States. And i enjoyed it to the fullest.
Rounded by host family and some friends, having turkey, Brussels sprout, enjoying white wine, home-made pumpkin pie and apple pie with Ben & Jerry's vanilla ice-cream; besides, talking over the phone with my cousin, and cousin-in-law at Chicago.
All i want to emphasize here is just the life i had in the States.

Not anymore here, while my life is just cramping with work, work, work, other than work, TVs. Nothing much to have been offered.
Starting to feel bored with this kind of simply working life.
A work needs life somehow.
Do give me more time to adjust it, will grumble or complain once in a while.
It's just the life that i've chosen a year and a half ago, as i always said, i wouldn't have a way to have turned myself back anymore, but to walk straight instead.

About updating blog~~~

2010-11-01T13:19:00.006-04:00

I always wondered, why do i kept going with my blog sometimes, while there are not much people reading it. And i am still holding my persistent to write my blog and updating it while i m at leisure. Now, i was sitting in front of my laptop, listening to music, chatting in msn, doing some background changes to my blog, looking at my blog display pictures, reading my own profile, reading what I've written, and checking out my facebook. I suddenly realized, why am i being so persistent in updating my blog.

I will simply forget things, very easily forgetting things.
Which is not suppose to be happening so frequent for a 20 some gal.
I am having short term memory lost, which it made me recalled of a movie, which i used to like it so much and have watched for few times, '50 first date' by Drew Barrymore & Adam Sandler.

It's about a gal, Lucy who has lost her memory after a severe accident that she bumped into.
Repetitively doing the same thing every single day, she stayed at the same day when she's having the accident.
Until she bumped into this guy, Henry, having a 50 times first date for the gal but not the guy, and the guy have to fit into her every single time for the 50 first kiss.
It's fortunate that Henry truly loves Lucy and wanted every way to let her remember him, in fact in the end, she did. And he did a lot of things repetitively for her after they have gotten married, having kid.

It leads me to think about it, will i forget the whole world one day?
Why i kept updating my blog, and updated it so frequently, one of the reason is to keep it as a record/track to myself, saying that, i've been there before, or i've done this before, i've ate that before.
This though suddenly comes up to my mind.
Am i really doing it for myself in fact...
Or maybe i m just thinking too much at the moment.

From day 1 i started blogging, i always thought that it's a way for me to link with my close one when i m not staying close to them.
However, it has gradually turned into my routine, and there were readers who followed my blog, which made me being so grateful to have them sharing their thoughts and share their voices here with me.
At least, letting me know there are still people who did read my piece/ crap.

And now, seems to be different, other than ranting/ grumbling at people, sharing my thoughts/ feelings.
It seems to be having another reason, when i read back to my previous entries.
I will read it as though it wasn't originally from me.
However, it recalled my bad memory of what i've been through before.
Which served as a good reminder.
It's just some thoughts eventually!

HK Trip Part III

2010-10-30T15:23:00.005-04:00

Actually, i've just spent about 3-4 days in HK, i was wondering why would i need to drag for a few entries to finish describing my whole trip.
I still wouldn't put it as fantastic. However, their food really made me salivates.

My favorite drinks there, Lemon Tea by Vita, it's not so sweet, not so sour, just at the right taste.
And the main thing is you can get it elsewhere, as long as you saw the vendor machine, how convenient it is.

Life is always about delicious food. Here they were, though the food here didn't look to be real nice, however, it did taste decent and nice.
It served within 5-7 minutes this time, however, comparing to Malaysia's services, they are just way faster than us.

These two dishes were from a restaurant that we happened to walk in, as we have shopped til so hungry.
The decoration was nice, however, the feel was like Wong Kok restaurant here.
The most important thing, the food they served were only one word to describe, nice.
Or i should conclude, there's nothing that wasn't nice for HK food.
So far, as what we have tasted, no matter in the proper restaurant or at the roadside stall, it's all nice.

Except for the spaghetti i had in Macau. The first ever worse spaghetti i've ever had. Seriously, no joke.

It's like the whole trip of mine only surrounded by food, food and food.
Yeah, 50% of my main purpose for this trip was food, of course, they were so well known for their food.
Another 50% goes to shopping. However, it's a disappointment trip if it was only for shopping.
The things in HK now was pretty expensive; maybe Hong Kees are just used to the high living expenses city. Therefore, for them, it doesn't seems to be so. But a normal one.

I gotta penned off here. I don't know whether there will be a Part IV, shall see.

Heart Attack!!!

2010-10-28T13:41:00.004-04:00

Was not having a very good day lately.
Besides, think would be having heart attack real soon...
Today was a rough day. Which didn't sound good at all.
Everyday is a challenge sometimes is really bull-shitting...
Seriously, if everyday is a challenge and those challenge are not easy to solve, you are just going to lead yourself to depression.
It's just the time problem now, how long can we stand it.
It's somehow not easy especially when people don't even appreciate your effort.
One word to describe, upset.

If everyone can just play their part well or just be more responsible.
Things won't get this worse, and things won't get this hasty and nasty.
I shall go to bed now in fact, i would be having a rough weekend this week.
I wouldn't say it's unbearable, however, as what people always put it in a positive way.
It's challenging. Everyday is a challenge.

HK Trip Part II

2010-10-25T12:39:00.006-04:00

Time for some pictures here in order to let you guys having a better picture what have i gotten from HK...

Though the days in HK wasn't long, however, it somehow being a good getaway from job and everything.
The people there didn't seem so bad as what we've heard actually, just that they were really focusing on speed.
Even their escalator are faster than here, having a bigger portion of food, the old folks are leisurely wandering around the field/ park.
The road has never stopped running with cars, and people.

After such a long time that didn't have such early breakfast, it's somehow hard for me to retain my energy.

Besides, it's the funniest joke we've gotten in HK and it has been shared by my friends everywhere, which is actually related to a cup of tea.

This is the tea that i was referring to

It's actually used for utensil cleaning before you take your food. The utmost funny thing is that, we drank and i asked for a refilled.

Below was the dessert that we took away from the stall, honeydew sago and a variety of mousse.

It really tasted differently from what we had in Malaysia. The sweetness was just the level of making you feel like having another sip of it.

The one showing is my favorite in HK, which you can sees it everywhere.
When you are thirsty, you may just put the coins in and gets it. With all type of drinks which we didn't really gets the drink in Malaysia though.

The special vendor machine caught our attention. Why would i call it special, because it's not a simple machine that provided cold carbo drinks.
But a vendor machine that provided cold carbo drinks at the same time, you would get your drinks icy cold. Cause you will get ice inside the bottle.
Isn't that special.
Do imagine, if you are under the big sun, sweating, or feeling so hot/ warm, it just turn up at the right time.
However, i would just say that things in HK never seems cheap.

Their rental per month can really used up their salary per month, if they are staying in a slightly convenient places according to the tour guide.
At this point, we seems to have an easier and relieving life, as they would have to really fight for their high expenses per month.

Okay, that's too far away from the topic, below is the last part of the story that i m going to flood you guys with.
My favorite breakfast place. Fortunately having my friend highly recommending this place, otherwise we would definitely missed this place.
As this place has had a distance with where we stayed.
They are having the fresh milk, and with the 3 minutes service applies to this place as well.

This is the famous breakfast place that when we sit down, we have to order and the food being served within 3 minutes.
And it's a big crowd insides.

Our breakfast, lucky that we ordered only two sets for three, otherwise, we wouldn't be able to finish a set.
One set of theirs equivalent to double sizes of our food in a set.
Another best thing in HK is that, the food are delicious. Everything is must try.

Will be continued later for my Part III, as now need to look for more pictures in order to not to bore all of you who reads my page.

HK trip~~~

2010-10-23T22:56:00.001-04:00

It has been a while since i traveled.
Have just gotten back from Hong Kong.
The weather in HK now is considered to be decent, 25C to 28C averagely.
However, it's still somehow warm, fortunately it is having some wind.
While the breeze brushes your face and body unharmed, it just felt so good.
Especially when you are able to get off from your tedious, hasty moment at work, it will feels even better, with your best friends around.
Talking, walking, eating, laughing.

I always prefer to take afternoon flight instead of a morning flight, as the time to wake up and the mood of the day will be totally different.
Indeed, i did take the afternoon flight. As we don't have to wake up so early, we were reaching the airport early.
Did whatever check in we need to, and rest for our lunch at McDonald.
Isn't that sounds any better than rushing for a morning flight, just afraid of getting the destination late, and waste for a day.

When it's time that we landed Hong Kong, it's not too late, and we did have some leisure hour to walk around our hotel.
Felt the breeze, while the weather was like crossing over the upcoming season which was fall to winter.
The breeze was nice. We had great food, by bumping in a stall which we have passed by for twice, being undecisively of what to have for our dinner.
While we got our trip back from the shopping, we have decided to go for the food at the stall.
As what we heard of, in Hong Kong, better make your decision fast, and the food come real fast.
Once we have sit down, within 5 minutes, the noodle has been served.
What a great timing, while you felt just hungry and craving for food. Normally we would have to wait for a minimum of 10 minutes. However, they just served it fast, and with the food warmth.
It felt really great.

Will just penned off here. The trip is to be continued. Stay tune.

A big wrong move~~~

2010-10-06T20:54:00.003-04:00

I would first say, you are definitely making a wrong move, a big one...
When you first showed yourself in front of all,
You should be humble, but you didn't.
You should be gentle, but you didn't.
You should be respectful towards the old folks, but you didn't.
What you did is, showing attitude that won't be granted in the family.
Whatever you did is to show you're over full of yourself, until the extend of arrogant and a true hypocrite.
You only thought of yourself being weak by people, whereby didn't really put in other people's shoes and have a real thought.
You have been a disgrace in the family for sure from now on, this is not what the family given you, it's YOU who earned it yourself.

You thought people will grant you whatever permission you wanted, to crab around the family.
We are sorry, you don't.
We have already hold back our steps, and you shouldn't be persistent towards nothing, and think that you will be the dominator.
I would just say, you are making a wrong move again. A big one.
No one will appreciate you if you didn't at least try appreciate people.
Using your way, is just a no way.
You are in fact leading yourself towards the edge of your marriage again.
You are not all, and you don't have that rights to do that to anyone.
Whenever you are around, there's war, and you are the core who created it.
I am wordless as i don't really want to intervene in anything.
However, what i can said is you are making a wrong move in the family which you shouldn't.
Whatever i said has been proven right on you. It's the hilarious thing that at the initial stage people don't quite believed what i've said.
Now, i've been proven just right, nothing that i've commented on you have been a slight wrong.
If we ever take the big turn, i don't think you will have the u-turn after all.
To be yourself is good, to have be full of yourself in a non position is a total fool.

Stay out of our business

2010-09-29T14:04:00.004-04:00

Sometimes, i really doubted for a long while, how come people just don't mind their own business.
When it comes to gossip, everyone would like to intervene or put their foot in.
When there's anything big happens, they just silently draw out and go back to their comfort zone.
Seriously, i can't figure out, why would these bunch of people keep busybody.

Especially when it comes to a family business. It would be best if you guys didn't intervene.
As i wouldn't want to say out loud that, it's actually none of your business, and please mind your own will do. You guys are just not in the position to voice anything.
When we need the most supports from the family, you guys did nothing at all.
You guys were just standing aside and staring blankly without offering anything.
That's why i said, you guys were just nothing.
Even though my own bro has encountered some bloody difficulties now, however, it's still none of your business to voice a single word.

Whenever you guys didn't even educate your kids in well manner, and you want to intervene in people's family business and offered your precious comments.
It's just pathetic and hilarious.
Nothing much to say.
So, when it's none of your business, please stay out of it.
Cause we will take care of it, whatever responsibilities, or muddy business, we will just take well care of it.
Hence, please draw your hands back when you can't even deal with your own child.
Whatsoever, i would have to express my gratefulness towards you guys.
If you have lend your hand that time, we wouldn't become so independent at points.
If you have lend your hand that time, we wouldn't have such comfy life now.
If you have lend your hand that time, we wouldn't have been getting so trained up for our EQ utilization.
Let me thank you for letting us become independent and recognize clearly that we couldn't depend on anyone but ourselves.
While people keep making empty promises and doing foolish things, it's just the way it is.
I would just advice you guys again, stay out of our business.
If we think we can deal with it, we can, and def we will ensure it's tastefully done.

When you're in people

2010-09-10T14:27:00.001-04:00

Not a damn bit~~~

2010-09-08T14:42:00.006-04:00

It's pretty funny, when i've observed for some while, in order to hard prove myself i m not wrong about being judgmental towards her.
If she wanted to be like the below pictures that you guys are seeing later, it's pretty impossible, except she really paid a lot of effort.
I wouldn't give myself a dead way to bang as in, i wouldn't put things as impossible, but the chance is just dim.

I would say, i am kinda sensitive towards people, especially hypocrites.
It is just not having any fine words to put it through or to be defined.
I would just offer you guys an example, of bikini gal turning Jennifer Aniston, how big the chance would be?
What do you think?

Okay, the story begins this way, when i first knew this gal, i just don't feel like commenting anything at all.
However, i don't have any bad feeling yet towards her.
She's trying her ever best to act cute and innocent in front of everyone.
It's just looked exactly a hypocrite, but i just don't feel like judging her that soon, as she will have all those little trick going on, it made me just can't trust her at all.
When she heard of anything from the office or someone else's gossip or rumor, things turned to be her way.
She want to lead and think that she can boss around and lead the whole gang into her way.
Unfortunately, she doesn't sound so convincing and reliable, none of the gang members would want to pay a tiny bit trust on her.
It's hard to earn people's trust when you don't even have a reliable elements in yourself.
All of all turned out ugly, especially now.
When you tried your ever best to please someone who wouldn't appreciate you at all, but using you all the while.
We are just wordless, when we looked at her.
She's like creating no value for herself at all now and then.
Whatever is it, what i couldn't stand now, is that her squeaking voice.
Seriously, it's not so big a deal, and you screamed like there's a funeral next door.
OMG, what kind of images you wanted to portray now.
And you thought you acted close with people will bring you somewhere...then i would really feel sorry for her.
If she tend to be like someone she doesn't even look like, she's just a nobody still, as the image that she imitated just wouldn't work at all. I would say.
This is the real world, everyone lives in the reality.

She just wanted to make herself being the center of attention, and couldn't really accept people who don't like her.
It's kinda awkward isn't it.
When you used up all your little tricks and being seen, i don't think i am able to forget it, unless am having a very long period of time to dilute all the things i saw.
Which is hard i would say.
Seriously, again, i don't mind being alone, and i don't even give a damn on what she was bad mouthing about me. Whatever it was.
It's just the way it is. I think am pretty independent, as i've been very used to being alone.
Even though sometimes, when you don't owned a friend, you def wouldn't feel that good, and lonely somehow.
And the most important thing is that, i really don't give a damn.
At here, i would love to thank my friends who really being my friends that didn't dump me because of her being princess and trying to boss around though i am the one who boss around. ;)
And i m glad because i sees it more clearly.
Wanted to convey this message to her that, be yourself man, if you trying to imitate people, it just lead you to no where. And you will be just a nobody.

Can't judge a book by it's cover!!!

2010-09-03T13:37:00.003-04:00

Women are always the cause of something...isn't it???
Have always wondering about it. Is it or is it not?

When guys used to saying women, is the core.

A positive way of commenting people, diplomatic; if you are trying to use a negative word to portray that people in that situation, it might be fake.
Seriously, no word can better replaced this word.
When the one around you started with small tricks, and it have been seen, that will just turn the whole table to become ugly.
And for sure, no turning back. For women, i would say.

It's all of women's nature, i would quote that. Maybe you are not on my sides, however, face the truth that i m going to talk about later.

What my main point here is that, when people are having such beauty faces, or good outlook or even outfit, doesn't mean that they are the innocent party.

They might be someone who's doing some horrific things behind you, thought that you don't know whereby they can still acted in front of you.
The percentage of this category of people being kind, is actually very low.

I met a girl who was super confident, she once said 'no man will treat me no good in this world'.

Which the whole table do not know how to give her reactions. But giving none.

Maybe she's well presented herself, but in her deep self, there are something hidden that we couldn't see. This is what i believed.

Once i've said this, maybe there will be people saying that you are just jealous of people's beauty or just simply don't like her due to her being more popular and prettier than you.

I am sorry, if you are the one who thought me this way. Please proceed accordingly to think this way.

Perhaps the world is being way too nice for you. So, just go ahead to lead that thought.

Don't spoils it then...

Frankly, in my perception, it won't be that easy when you are from that background, trying to build rapport with every single one.

It's awkward and fake when you let people found out you are not that kind of person.

I would always trusting my instinct. Or i would just put it as things are subjective, because everyone view things differently.

I have been hearing about her pretty much lately. Which has obviously annoyed me a lot as well.

No matter it's her good or bad, it's none of my business, as i m all along not so interested to befriend with those who are not my channel.

When you starts the gossip and think it wouldn't hurt, it has shown your personality as a

gossip girl.

And there won't be no reason would guys come out with the word, 'women are always the core'.

Perhaps i would have to think wiser or behave in high EQ like the one below.

Michelle Obama, the first lady of United States.

Exasperating~~~

2010-09-01T11:38:00.002-04:00

It begins with a not so good day, as i couldn't really dragged myself up from my bed since the morning.
Don't even realized that my room mate has actually got out of the room.
My day started with a bad mood hanging over from my room to the office. On the way, no smile granted.
My mind was boggling all day long without a content. Which somehow i felt upset about it.
I don't really know what is going on with myself suddenly, hormone imbalance, according to what the doctor said previously.

I was having such a mood swing 360 degree, with all those hard feelings, uneasiness, and uncomfortable/inappropriate words from myself.
From the deep of me, i was actually talking to someone who was innocent, they didn't do anything,however they were still being involved in the mood swing group, which they don't have to.

Especially when there were any hypocrites lay right in front of you.
It made me feel more disgusted over, i couldn't picture her presenting herself that way, thinking no people noticed it.
She def is annoying, and irritating.
This wasn't the main point, when you starts seeing her flatter people without a point, and back stabbed people thinking won't have people noticing it.
I am so sorry to say, she's again taking the wrong step.

For me, as a friend, the very basic philosophy or ethics you should have is not to bad mouth your friend behind or back stab.
It's a bitch or bastard who normally do it.
People didn't require your help at all, so please do not simply said a word without going through your brain.
How hurtful it will be, if the person heard it.
Unfortunately, she didn't utilize her brain properly.
If you are afraid that your colleagues and superior do not know what are you doing in your small cubicle, do shout like the hypocrite that i mentioned above.
A tiny biny thing required you to think without saying out loud, no people will actually pay attention to your content except for your squeaking voice.
It's seriously, annoying and irritating. Without a second thought.
It really looks ugly this way, when there were someone who already updated me with all the information on site, and she brought it up herself to cover her ass in front of me.
It's just no point covering up for herself.
What kind of reaction or response you would expect me to give?
I really don't know. For only disgusted. That's the only word i can came out with. Sorry to say.

Therefore, i was even more having a god damn bad day for the day being, except for my work, i was not really in the mood to talk.
Just got my things done, go for dinner and go back to my room.
Before getting back to my room, i dropped by a place to have the supper in thoughts, ended up i was sitting there with my bunch of friends without a second word with them and keep on busy with my cell phone conversation.
Just don't feel like spoiling other people's mood when you yourself wasn't holding a good mood. It will def affect the whole bunch.

Attention Seeker!!!

2010-08-28T22:55:00.003-04:00

When you have been surrounded by an attention seeker, what could you do about it?
He/she will just whatever she can to seek for attention, and always wanting to be the center of attention.
What i can say is that, he/she will just be having lesser and lesser friends, due to the reason of the center of attention.
I've recently encountered a case this way, it's a she, and she was just a typical attention seeker.
How can a gal from that family background an attention seeker?
I doubted and can't really figured out.
Her family background was very complicated, with the mother passing away, father abandoning, step father getting all money she has had during her school days and step brother been hitting her all the while since he's a grown up.
Now, when we heard of this story, seems more like what the drama series having.
Between she's having a lot of holes that she couldn't fix up with her story when people tried to delve further, she turned her head away straight.
Logically, if she was born this way, she shouldn't then be such an arrogant bitch.

What i couldn't figure out is that, we are taking it very seriously and privately.
In fact, she was telling everyone the same old shit.
And made it doesn't seems real anymore.
It's horrible and terrifying somehow, to have seen this kind of people staying besides you.
If you don't pay attention to her, she will straight dumping her stuff and left without a word. Or being very emotional regarding people offering her some suggestions or advice.
She's somehow holding a thought that she's the best, and she's having the best ideas.
Sad case again.

I don't mind getting along with an attention seeker, but this was just too over.
She thought of nothing but herself and portrayed herself differently in front of different people.
I do not think this will work for long term, except she's showing her face and portraying herself at that level for the rest of her life.
It really sounded sad.

To say Hi!!!

2010-08-23T15:12:00.002-04:00

Hey all, simply wanna draft a quick message to all of you guys.
Thanks for your support all along, and i m now having more readers and visitors each day checking out my blog.
I can still remember when i first started this blog, i've been inspired by one of my best friend, which is a mother-to-be now.
I am able to write things that i love here, or scold people that i loathed here, and shared my experiences and thoughts here, which i have my friends or people who are having the same thoughts to revert me.
I've been touched somehow, when i browse my own blog, read every single word that i wrote.
I would somehow expect my friends to visit my blog more frequently, however, some of them just think it's a waste of time to read people's blog.

Anyhow, just want to thanks you guys who really read my blog and give me replies.
Just that i've been having a crazy and hectic life recently, since then, i cut short my blogging time.
I will keep up with what i usually do again.
I can't wait to post my blog and hear from you guys again.
See ya real soon~~~i've got really a lot to rant about.

Exhaustion~~~

2010-07-23T22:45:00.002-04:00

It was somehow exhausting to face people who always crown themselves.
The exhaustion doesn't simply come in a way when you have all the passions and ambitious towards something.
It shouldn't be the way it is now.
When you have been through a certain stages and it's without any progressiveness, you will feel especially exhausted.
You have had enough of the situation, indeed you are not, you are just going to have more,and it will definitely make you exhausted.

You will get closer and closer to the exhaustion.
You will feel listless towards everything in your life.
I do believed this happens, whenever you bumped into something huge and gets you exhausted while you have finished the stuff.
A very simple thing, from my surroundings, few of my colleagues have actually quit themselves from the current job, and most of them do not land any job for themselves while they handed over the letter.
This surprised a lot of people, due to insecure financial issue will come up straight.
However, the even more surprised came out from each of them were all of the same.
We were just exhausted, the years we have been with this company has been enough.
We just going to rest for a while only starts looking for the next job.

How do you think while everyone told you the same thing?
It's sad to hear isn't it? When you are in somewhere you really like and would like to learn more and get more in progress.
Due to some favoritism or buttering reason, you don't gets anything, and always being framed by nothing.
This might be the sad things, but people who don't use their eyes to see is even sadder.
And here it created exhaustion among people.
Which will not be cured so soon! Because it goes with time and rest.

Annoys...

2010-07-12T13:17:00.003-04:00

I've been pretty frus recently, towards my job and the people around me somehow.
Which i felt really sorry to those who are innocent in the line.
I am indeed referring to some of my friends, who have to fit into what i wanted to eat and adapting my ironic words all the time...
Really sorry about it.
I would put it as they are thoughtful. They didn't rant, grumble, shoot me back by hurting words and so forth.
Therefore, i felt sorry...

What i felt the most annoyed was that, when you are talking, or in the middle of conversation, just don't talk to people.
Don't bullshitting me by saying that's urgent, it can always wait for a few minutes.
We aren't billionaire or businessman will have lose a few million or billion in a minute like what the series always been portraying.
These people who likes cutting through your words, are either, want to get their things done straight and didn't spare a though to people or just don't care about others, cause his/her things are always the most important things.
Even a line that he/she is going to ask is much more important than everything.
Can't bear waiting a few more minutes.

These bunch of people are exactly like some noisy farmer markets.
When i looked at them, i couldn't pay attention at all. To what they were saying.
Okay, i appreciate if you would like to help, it's very nice of you.
However, you are using it in the wrong way. What is that?
You wanted to help when i am about to finish all, and you may take all the credits in front of the superior. Getting the whole situation on hand when i am trying my best to get things done and sort out.
It's not a very nice way.
You aren't my superior, i do not have to report to you.
When we didn't work as a team, i don't think there's any needs to report my stuff to you.
Only when i am about to finish, and you offered that tiny biny help, which annoys me a lot.

You knew i will sort it out my way, you knew i m sorting out my stuff without asking for help.
What i can tell you is that, thanks so much, i do not need it.
I can settle my own stuff...i do not want people to mess it up just like everytime you touched it...
It's a pain in the ass...mind your business, if i would need help, i would ask for help.
That really annoys me a lot.
I do not need any follow up, i will arrange my things nicely or orderly.
Therefore, please do not annoys me anymore by minding your own business.
That would be utmost great for me now.
Cause i've been very annoyed by you.
I can't see people flatter or butter that thick of a way.
What kind of working attitude is that.
It annoys me somehow, you are just flattered for the sake of flattered. Nothing special.
And it has been pretty much from then til now.

I would be utmost grateful and happy if you can just stay within your boundaries. It will be enough and nice.
Since everyone has their own ways of doing things.
Live it man~~~

From the bottom of my heart~~~

2010-06-29T11:50:00.002-04:00

Ever since when have i been figuring this issue but without any answers...
Things are always hard to say, here, i referred it to 'FAVORITISM'...
People view people vastly, somehow you would like that person at the first sight, or you don't...simple as that.
However, when people starts making it complicated or sophisticated...the whole circumstances changed.
If only you noticed it, or the one who surrounded you.

A drunken chick~~~

2010-06-12T14:08:00.005-04:00

It's been a while since i've posted anything here...
Due to my lackluster life now...lol...nope...i think it's more of the emotional wise.
I've began to be very emotional lately, can't really figure out where does this come from.
However, i always try my very best to make it my day. I mean, no matter a happy or unhappy, it's still a day.
It's the most realistic thing in the world. Nothing much to argue about.

Even though people were putting all the blames on you or whatsoever, take it without a second word.
I am sorta staying in this kind of world now.
Lotsa people asked me, how long do you intend to stay.
My answer is straight and clear, i don't know. When the day i can't stand it anymore, it's my time to call the quit then.
It's no exact answer for anything. Seriously. When you learn something here, it's all done.
When you are not good in buttering your boss, all gone, am i right???
I think it applies in all.
Sadly says, some of the bosses are still reasonably reasonable, but not all view it the same way.

I would say i m not a pop all the while. However, i am glad i still have friends.
When your boss is unsatisfied with what you've done, you would def need a bunch of friends who will always stand besides you to listen to your story.
Or when you are drunk, like me, which not happened that frequent.
Cause i knew from the heart that no one will pull me up and i would have to depend on myself to crawl back to my room.
Therefore, it's very edgy when you are drunk and there's just no one to even pull you up from the seats.
I knew whole heartedly, who is who, who is helping me all the while and protecting me from getting dead drunk. I would extend my grateful towards them. Thanks so much.
I knew the situation.
You would then need someone to hold you to the bathroom, in order to throw up in time.
You would then need someone to hold you to the seat when you came out from the bathroom.
You would then need someone to hold you straight in order to not letting you fall down from the chair.
It's a lot of troubles, which i don't really like it. That has created a lot of trouble whereby people might encounter the same problem as you, and you are the trouble maker at this sense.
I would thank this people of helping me and holding me all the while.
So far, there's only this person whose in my team ever did this to me, thanks to her and i am sorry for the troubles that i've created!

That's the big reason of me not dare to get drunk. And, gals, my advice is to always knowing your level, when should you stop.
When you get drunk, you might have a lot of drunken looks which really scares people off the hook.
Or it might not be you anymore with that dreaded looks.
However, this time, when i was walking back to my office possessing the smell of liquor all over my body.
I told myself not to be defeated, stay still. I could def make it back to my room though i was feeling dizzy and hungry.
And here comes some of them rounded me up when i successfully get myself back to the office.
Listen to their nags, rants regarding me drinking too much, getting too drunk, face too pale.
It's funny looking at their worrying face, which warmth my heart.

When i claimed that i was hungry, they went to mamak stall with me, simply to keep me company because i needed food.
Though i was sorta drunk with a pair of precarious eyes.
Couldn't even get myself steady, they were there for me.
To keep you away from falling down, or to keep you cautious with whatever obstacle is in front of you or to help you pick out the things that you weren't supposed to eat in your bowl.
They are the friends you needed once in your life time, though it do not have to be too many of them, but even you have one, you would have to feel grateful towards it.
Though you guys may not be closed to each other all the times, but it's a bunch of friends you wouldn't want to forget.
Thanks for bearing with a drunken chick which has created a lot of troubles and thanks again.

Timid is still fresh in my dictionary~~~

2010-06-05T13:24:00.003-04:00

This is a very fresh word to me, it has never appeared in my dictionary before.
Surprisingly and shockingly i heard of this word. And someone applied the word on me.
Saying that i was too timid to do this and that. Therefore i have indirectly created a very negative images towards people.
I was stunned and astounded, and do not know how to carry on.

I would say i am pretty calm when i first heard the word. Timid.
Is timid a negative word or a over strong word for me.
Timid being defined as lacking in courage or self-confidence. Or lacking of boldness and determination in Merriam Webster dictionary.
I felt strange towards this word as what i claimed previously, it has never applied on myself before. Along with my 26 years. Never heard this before on me.
Think that's what has astounded me.
Therefore, i was wondering, where does it comes from?

I would just put it as a comment, but not a good one.
When someone has against the normal rules or having certain new restriction that being defied. The situation turns differently.
I can't figured out a good way into describing it.
If you're not a favor, you wouldn't have a smooth way, but need to depend all by yourself in order to prove yourself to others.
This has been pretty common i think.
It's good to listen to more comments and get improve.

I can just put it in a way that we came from a different background.
Whatever you guys have experienced before or have in common, i don't.
I am from a very conventional background whereby things that i've been through wasn't the same as what others have had before.
Therefore, it created differences.
And here it came the common interest, when you get to know someone who hits it real well with you. Vice versa.
When timid with strong characteristic clashed, i can't figure out what would happen next?
Is timid a sign for social misfit.

Possessed of Strong Personality

2010-05-23T13:56:00.005-04:00

I possessed a very strong personality, this was from one of my mentor during my internship...
I guessed it wasn't a negative word, at least, for me, it wasn't.
The matter of fact, i am possessing a strong personality, whoever knows me knew this very well.

I've ever wondered, if i don't possessed this strong personality, what would i become?
Would i be just a puppet towards people whose controlling?
Would i be just a normal woman who gets everything easily because of being coquetry?
Would i be just a superglue who stick around with people all the time sacrificing my private time?
Would i be just a person who can't live by herself and give up whatever she's longing for or yearning for?
Would i be just a pure attention seeker who needs lots of attention?
Would i be just a to grease people who benefits me in life?
Would i be just a person who butter people all the time for own purpose?
Would i be just a person who will follow the rules always and being the obedient kid, adult, colleague, employee, superior to people?
What would i be then? If i weren't holding a strong personality.
Would i be just whatever not me for now?

What i can said is that, i can't live without my strong personality due to the background that i've grown up with.
I need to be strong to make decisions
I need to be strong to persist the whole family & friends
I need to be strong to attain whatever i wanted
I need to be strong to say whatever people don't dare saying/expressing
I need to be strong to express my own feelings either good or bad
I need to be strong to settle my own things without too much of depending towards anyone
These should have explain enough of why i need to be strong all the time

I can't really stands those people who are just saying without working on it/ giving a try.
Lots of thing are just simple as a plain paper.
However, i guessed not everyone gets it.
Everyone is having a different thoughts, or they have something good in mind that because they don't own a strong personality and they dare not put out the words.
It has been stolen by others when they would happen to tell others.

Though life has never been fair to everyone, but just cherish whatever you have.
I realized that life is just an experience of what you have been through, and how you been through.
Either you are choosing the right path, whereby, for me, there's no right path to choose. But what you thought is right.
When you have chosen that path, please do not looked back too many times.
Or else, you will doubt whether you are on the path.
Don't doubt yourself. Maybe you might choose the wrong path. So what, face it.
Though you have bang your head to the wall, and gets bleed, so what, find a doctor and mend it.
That performed my strong personality again, isn't it?
I would admit that i am a person who will bang my head to the wall sometimes.
In order to get my facts and prove me right. Which sometimes it's not necessary.
Never try never knows what the result will be.
It can be a various answer though.

I am a person with my own thoughts, but people surrounded me now saying that it's just a sign of being stubborn.
If i am not following your way, doesn't mean that i don't believe you or being stubborn.
I just have another thoughts on doing it.
I might be wrong at that moment because the previous ancient has done it before.
It doesn't mean that i won't get it right.
However, for them, i am just on the wrong track, as i didn't follow.
According to what they have mentioned, this doesn't shows your thought, but you are destroying your own credibility.
I can't figure out what is that.

Sometimes, people just couldn't get out of their comfort zone and give it a try.
This is normal, i mean, it's like a norm for everyone that has settled down themselves.
Maybe a few more years, i will be the same as well.
To not getting out of my comfort zone, as it has been stabled and nice.
I remembered telling my friend that i wouldn't be staying one place for too long time. Cause i will get bore easily, and would like more adventurous kinda life.
My friend asked me, if you ever have had this opportunity to go to the India or South Africa for work, and you would have to stay for a month there. What would you do? Will you still go?
Without a second thought, i said, 'yeah, why not? why would you give up such a chance to explore more of yourself?'
He couldn't agree with me more. But that's alright, he's kinda a nice family man, which cares about the family and gf a lot.
I can totally understands why he would make such a decision and i am.
We are different, though we are still best old pal, however, we are different!!!
He mentioned that you are having such strong personality that scaring a lot of guys off.
I don't take it too seriously, i knew he's telling me the truth.
However, what can i do about it? To change myself just because i would want to fit into someone's character?
I don't think i m on for that. I am so sorry to say.
This is def stubborn, lol...i knew...
For me, i am just myself, whoever can accommodate my style, thanks for it, or just leave it.
Simple as that. Not everyone can do that, i knew, just leave it.
We aren't from the same channel...i think it explains all.
Lol...anyway, i m gonna penned off here.

We've gone to a different path!!!

2010-05-11T13:50:00.006-04:00

I've been fb-ing around today...and one thing struck on me suddenly...
Some of my best pal during my school time has gone to a different path!!!
Some of them has got married, some of them are now busy with their kids, some of them are still fooling around, and some of them are trying their ever best to save money for a wedding...
It's so different from what we've expected and talked before.
When we were staying side by side, sit besides each other, chatting about our dream guys and the criteria for our partner in future...and it has def change now...
Those days were no longer with us, and the minds were changed as well.

Previously, my uncle told me when i was about to graduate from my college.
Ever remember that, the one who will be with you are the one in your college and university.
During that time, i don't hold the same thoughts, as i was still having a close relationship with my school friends.
When i was in the university, time fleeted and time with my friends in school getting shorter and shorter, lesser and lesser.
Let's not mentioned about those who were abroad. We have not even met once when they were back.
The mindset has definitely been different.
And the work whilst has become different as well, the friends that we met in university was different as well, the common interest we hold were different as well.
Things get harder and harder, when your best pal previously has lost track of you for quite some while, they can never get back to the right track.
As both of you have just gone too far from each other.
When you have graduated from the high school... first thing became different will be the college that you attended, and later on, the industry that you have decided to go for.

When you have been in the u, you met different people, those who are having common interest will join together.
Those who don't, normally takes time into joining some gang/group.
It's somehow interesting, cause when you met different people or group, only you will get to know, the world is big.
You don't really have that bunch of friends forever, but you do have some friends whose holding a common interest with you.
That enlarge your circle and enhance your network in many ways.
I mean, friends can be very close and sticky, but when you are on a different path, it doesn't mean that there's no more friend.
You will talk to them, though it's lesser, however, the feel is still there. You've got lots to talk. Though you don't see each other that often.
But you always keep them in the heart. That's the best part.
How many of us can actually work it~~~
It will have another circumstances as well, which is turning to the negative sides, as you have lost track of each other, you will have nothing much to talk about when you see each other.
This situation made me think of those gatherings...people likes having gathering.
If you noticed, there's always people who joined are the regular. Those who aren't joining, will sorta lost track with each other for long.
How can you retain the friendship and retain the BFF...
It's hard but is possible to do so. As long as you have the same heart.
I believed so.
Being grateful to have a bunch of friends who are still with me, though we have gone to a real different path.

Romantic~~~

2010-05-08T12:38:00.005-04:00

Recently have been watching and reading some romantic kind of movies and pieces...
I would have to claim that it's romantic for me.
And i truly understands that it can be very subjective.
As most of the people thinks differently, the definition of romantic might be different from each one as well.
I used to think myself as a romantic person, however, seems like my romantic philosophy doesn't really applies on people.

I do think that some subtle action can touch deep into a gal's heart.
Pic paint a thousand words as i always emphasize:-

Holding hands aren't that easy,some people don't really care about this, while holding hands is actually an important action that couple should applies it always.

Somehow, when the guy is willing to wait and lift his hand up for a gal to hold, gals, hold it tight. It means he don't really want to give up easily on you and would like to go farther with you fitting each others pace.

Even if you are having a fight with each other, if the guy truly loves you, he will try to do his best to make you happy always!

He always willing to do whatever stuff to make you happy. Because he love you. According to Chuck Bass (Gossip Girl), he just wanted to make Blair Wardolf happy; therefore, whatever she wanted, he will not reject her.

Owning couple watches, in the other means of showing how both of you can fit into each other life. It has been so hard into fitting into each other life which you never did before.
If both of you fits well in life, then you are meant to be together with the significant couple watches.

When it's time to walk the dog together, you are actually in the state of describing your romanticism to others.
Cause you made it work. It's kinda romantic, when you are walking the dog with your love one at the beach.

The latest piece i have read lately was regarding the Taiwanese artist, 黑人,陈建州 has proposed successfully to his girlfriend 范玮琪 at New Jersey's basketball court while there's a match of his best buddy.
It's doesn't seem so much touching as well, until i read this piece of article, saying the whole process of how Hei Ren goes into Fan Fan's world.

Which i've shared it on my fb. If you are interested to read it, just drop by my fb. I am sorry to say it's in Mandarin, if anyone of you are interested. Drop me a message, i will think of translating it for you guys. Lol...now very lazy to think of it.

The above mentioned are what i thought is romantic.
Though most of the people would think it's not practical, and would rather have some luxury kind of romantic dinner at some fancy restaurant, and that's what they called romantic.
Cool, it's just some thoughts.
I am looking for that subtle kind of romantic, and it's hard i think. Cause until now i still can't finds it.
So far, i m still holding my persistent towards romantic.
Some words from some guy who doesn't seems to care their girlfriend, but without the must word 'i love you'. It can still be romantic.
Maybe they will put it this way, which i learns from a movie,
"I am a slight freak of cleanliness, but if she would like me to change, i am willing to. "
"I have never change my hair style before, but if she would like me to change, i am willing to. But it will be better of if i can retain it this way."
"After married, i would like to have two kids, i will try my best to persuade my other half to have the same thought as me.'
"This is what i want to say to you when you are not around, long time no see."
From the surface, it doesn't seem so romantic, but when you heard of what the tone the actor is using, that sounds a different.

That's what i emphasized to be, romantic can be subtle at the same time just romantic.
Anyone has the same thoughts as me? Lol...

This just ain't my world~~~

2010-05-06T12:39:00.000-04:00

Just had a feeling that this ain't my world anymore, i am trying to fit into a world that i've never been but always wanted to.
It's hard somehow, and we all knew.
However, i've overcame it with, my own persistence. I kept my word to myself. Now is not the right time yet.
Everyone was up to something, i thought i was as well.
Yesterday wasn't my day, i got screwed again because of not knowing how to cover my ass well. The same mistakes happened, and no one is lending a hand, but myself.
It's a fault of mine, of not pacing faster, yes, i guessed so.
What i can said was i am not pacing fast enough to fit into someone's pace.
That's not what i wanted. I would like to take it slower, and get all the essence in between.

People kept being ironic of me speaking in an American accent.
What was that all about, i can't figured that out. But i have changed, changed into a slight American accent i guessed.
Changed to a language that 'everyone' can digest, with those 'lah','li', 'loh'.
When people are in a big group, they tend to ask the minor to change base on theirs.
This is a norm i supposed.
Just would feel that, it doesn't seems like a world that i would like to fit in.
Nobody is taking some thing serious, but as long as can get it done, and with that common language slang that everyone here knows, they give in.
Whereby, they are sorta cornering the one who are not willing to turn in.

As what i always understand, there will never be fair in the world. Otherwise, there won't be a disparity in poverty with the rich.

Hectic mood~~~

2010-05-06T11:52:00.002-04:00

It doesn't seem to be my days recently.
Mood gets snotty easily and in fleets.
Have been worked out lots lately, however, it doesn't seem to cure or least bit of the stress was having.
Got my aim and think of how to achieve it, whereby it leads me into thinking it from another angle.
If i can convince myself of having a simpler life, would i ease my short temper.
If i can convince myself of having a simpler life, would i satisfy with what i owned now.
If i can convince myself of having a simpler life, would i still be able to be the bolster to get things solve.
If i can convince myself of having a simpler life, am i willing to be a dual of people or control by people.
If i can convince myself of having a simpler life, would i be yearning to climb the stairs and get to a higher position and prove myself to others that i can actually get what i want/ aim.
If i can convince myself of having a simpler life, would i compliant to have a guy just not i wanted but people think that i need.
Can i just live my life this way, as what i claimed to lead a simpler life, not much worries, easy going, satisfy with what you have currently, and do whatever you should because you should, follow instruction of what your seniors told you to, an opinion doesn't seem to be needed at all.
I don't think so. Much of all, i don't think i can just have my life this way.
Life is always a challenge or an adventure to explore on. That's why it's mean and hectic sometimes. Or to the people whose being treated in an unfair manner, it's an always!

I used to think i am able to do whatever i wanted, and i clearly knew that it won't be it.
Things always ran out of control, however, this time is just simply out of track, and the track has been sorta sidetrack.
I have no idea how to get it sort out. Which i don't really there will be a way, unless it depends on itself.
No one can offer the help without a knowing heart.
Way too tough and hectic for me to deal with. And i felt like giving up, as it has already been a huge disappointment.
When you have been told by people that, it's a huge disappointment and you were so confident to ensure that everything will be alright, it's just a play.
Things came out wasn't the way as what you thought, and that person has been totally derailed him/herself from the rail because of being affected by an irrelevant person. What would you think?

This wasn't exactly my business, but why was everyone keep bugging me about this, whereby i think it's beyond my control and words.
I am done with this.
I am having a hectic mood. Even work out couldn't offer much helps.
I am a workaholic, however, it seems like things weren't go my way as well.
When you are in a hectic mood, everything don't goes well.
I do believed in this, when i was in good mood, everything goes my way.
Hoping that this hectic mood wouldn't stay too long with me. As now i am still holding it.

My Bali Trip 2~~~

2010-04-04T13:57:00.009-04:00

This was the troupe that i went to Bali with!!!

I'm back for good i guessed...because the previous one i blogged was wholly crap...lol...

It's just some of my feeling about work during the trip to Bali. What I've encountered at the airport and in Bali itself.

Okay. Now is the turn for Bali story, there were people who would like to hear from me for long, however, i dragged til now. I am sorry for that.
A picture paints a thousand word. Here you go.

The trip was a bit bored whereby we have been tied up with temples, as what we all knew, temples were the signage of Bali. People paid visits.
However, i didn't get to go to every i would say it's a cherished.
I did do some shopping in return in fact.

Second day was a full day for the matter of fact.
Some temples were nice and full of crowd, because according to lots of Balinese belief, the spring water will actually save them from wound.

The dinner was def a plus plus, however, i m not a fan of bbq, therefore, i don't feel too much of a thing. Lol...
I would just add up for the environment there, was just so romantic, that you would calm yourself down with the heat of the day.

Aren't the above pictures seems cool.
Before ending our days, we have decided to go clubbing to fill up the rest of the day.
It's a club which being recommended by our tour guide, called 'Bounty'.
First time been to a club that was having some dancers to dance with you and you won't feel that awkward starting the dance.
It's not so early, however, it's almost full. We were lucky to have a table at the corner. At least we were having a table.
Okay, i think i will just simply wrap up a bit, since i gets a bit exhausted after the long day.
There are still things that i would like to share with, if you are interested to know. Lol.
Will be back soon~~~

My Bali Trip~~~

2010-04-02T11:55:00.003-04:00

When i am back to my blog, i am delighted to see some of you have dropped me message sharing your thoughts...I appreciated your replied. Seriously, some of them don't even want to reply...though it's just a few lines, but thanks for sharing!!!

As mentioned earlier on, gonna share with you guys about my trip to Bali recently. Just a week ago. Have been backed only two days ago~~~
It's actually a pretty fun trip for me, and it really lets me feel spending the fullest of the days when we were in Bali, Indonesia.
Unexpected things came in line, like work!
I would put it as a hectic holiday, whereby still get to enjoy to the fullest~fortunately...
Though it's my off days, however, things still goes on, and therefore, have received quite a number of calls from the company.
I am actually heading to the airport and people keep calling, and my friends were like asking me not to answer the call or reply any text. Otherwise it will be a custom for people to look for you.
Maybe in their company culture, they practiced it this way. I don't think any wrong of answering phone calls during off days.
However, what i concerned about is that, are they necessary to let my off days to be as hectic as my working days? Should that be a custom to make people feel unrelieved even they are going off.
Some one might said, this is the way it is...oh ya. Maybe!

Sometimes i really wondered whether myself is a workaholic or my friends aren't one...
I did enjoy it, however, the work thingy will just keep up in my mind always. Whereby i made myself to be available for my friends.
I somehow think that it was precious and grateful to have my friends with me, always!!! Not everyone got that i presumed.
We spent our college times together, though we didn't spend time for our interns, we spent our time talking to each other while free. That's the way!
Whereby, we all appreciated each time when we get together.
The trip is a signage of appreciating each other...i thought so~~~

Okay, let's talked something about my trip.
It was hot, warm, what else can i put in. But fun, nice.
I just love the club, it made me felt i was in the US again~~~lol...i really missed the US tons.
Our hotel was nice, good scene, and good location. This was the best out of all.
It's just a hidden place, whereby you wouldn't know there's something hidden behind a pretty run down tattoo store.
Our first day ended up with some walking and the heart of yearning for second day.
As we reached pretty late to Bali that night. We have had a warmth welcome by the people there. And the airport was just so crowded when we reached.

Stay tuned, i will be back for more.

When there's no blogger surrounded you~~~

2010-03-18T13:38:00.003-04:00

I wouldn't put it as an assumption this time.
Cause as what i knew, from my surrounding, there's very little people who blogs.
Some of my friends even categorized blogging as you're either too boring, or you're too free.
It will somehow put those bloggers into some awkward situation.
I wouldn't say i am a full time blogger, however, i do blogged very frequently, especially recently.
There's too many things that i would like to share with someone else, however, not going through my mouth, but my words.
It's a way for me to talk to some of my friends or family, who is trying to get more from me.
I always think that blogging is a best way to communicate, and expressed your emotions or thoughts, which is a better and more direct ways into showing people that you don't get to show when it's in real life.
People might not have that much of time to listen to you, or you don't really know how to express yourself in some ways, blogging is actually a good way.
When you can't get some ways out, you will tend to express your thoughts into words, if you are able to. And vice versa, you will just hide it in your heart without telling anyone.
I would say, it's not so healthy. If you have things that you would like to tell someone, however, you don't know whom to tell. This is quite a way to do it.
As people tend to understands it from your blog, no need additional words from you, and letting your friends or family to have another chance into knowing you better. And on the same track with you.
At least you won't lost track with anyone close to you. So do they!

However, there's still some people who couldn't get it.
So, let's just save our breath, and keep doing what we are supposed to, until the day they gets it.
It's alright, even there won't be a day came from them. It should be fine.
As long as you think that you are doing it right.
Or, should i put it this way, there's no right or wrong all the times, just that you are willing or not wiling, you can accept it or you can't. That simple.
Why complicates it!
It's just get tough, when your friend kept asking you what happened and you don't feel like telling. And when they don't go to your blog, that's the thing.
Work it out man~~~

So full a life man~~~

2010-03-13T13:15:00.005-05:00

I can't pictured myself in that circumstances.
When you have to strip yourself bare on stage, and jump into the crazy crowd, whereby, it's your job. How would you do about it?
I really can't pictured myself in that situation, frankly speaking.
It needs courage, lots and lots of courageous.
It's not an everyone job, i can definitely put it this way.
Absolutely, it's easy by words when you aren't the one who did this on stage.

Okay, it started with the time i was in BKK, Thailand.
I've seen those Tiger show, ping pong show, cow boy show and etc, can't even remembered the name of those shows.
It's not that as what we thought, you thought Tiger show was something that with Tiger...
It's some erotic show which contained huge sexual content.
You will see how those people work that way. Absolutely, you will be shocked when you knew it's their life to earn their living. It's in their culture.
This has blended in their culture, which people there don't really think any wrong with it.
However, it's not so in our country. Our country still reserve to be a conservative one.
Though we kept claiming that we are open minded, and always being a democratic.
Somethings are yet to reach that level of acceptance.

The show i am going to mention a while later is "Chippendales"
It's a higher range and entertaining male revue show than the Tiger show.
The content weren't exactly the same, however, the theme was the same, erotic/ sexual.
Go google it, and you will know exactly what do they showed. In short, they were the professional stripper.
It's forbidden to take any pictures or video inside the theater. Therefore, i've none of their video.
All of all, i would say, their performance were great, if you compared it with those erotic show. It's decent enough for here.
Thought they have had re-structure their performance to fit into our culture, therefore, they weren't that bared on stage.
As what it showed on the video on youtube, it's a different thing. They were real bared.
Here it goes with some of the pictures i took with the performers...which are cute, some of them are really good looking, oh gosh...lol

My favorite, who is the lead singer of the groupe, Bryan

The dancer that having a unique hairstyle

Lind Walter, the other favorite, dancer of the groupe

Billy Jeffrey, another performer, which looks so cool in navy uniform

Another lead singer, James, according to one of my friend, his arm is as big as my face, omg, just look at how macho and tall he is...

The lighting manager of the groupe, Martin

All of all, still my favorite...lol...

So, gals, get out the cage, cause I've seen a lot of aunties and gals there at the show screaming, crazy over them, which was a pretty shocking scene...
It's almost a full house, whilst, aunties enjoyed the most~~~what a scene...
However, it's so good to see it, as the sisters have all came up to live...lol...

Why making a big fussed???

2010-03-12T11:09:00.002-05:00

Just don't get it, why would you making a big fussed over...
Though i was exhausted for the whole day, due to the two nights of entertaining.
I was still holding a good mood to work, just thinking it will makes thing seems easier and better in a state.
I've been in high spirit even when my superior asking me to work on this or that, things should be pissing me over. However, i retained a good mood!
So fortunate that when i went for some stuff, i bumped into them.
The performers for tonight, Chippendale from the Las Vegas
A popular 'men' show in the Vegas and the world, which specially for women.
The favored even said hi. Which was a courteous in overseas! No one think it's a trouble or problem at all~
When it's all good and went so smoothly...here it came the trouble
We have missed out the chance of taking picture with the cast because it's a big messed over the stage
And when one of my colleague was trying to help out in getting my favored performer for a picture when he walked pass
He didn't mind at all, and some more, asked us to take a closer one, so that it wouldn't be so dark!
Here created the trouble.
Right after the picture been taken, you came over, though not shouting, but being sarcastically claiming that there's crowd who saw that, which was not good at all
I totally can't figured out. However, i was pretty sure about it, if that's your favorite, i don't think you will sound them at all.
It's just because of us, you made a big fussed over, whereby none of the people in the house think it's anything wrong about it.
If taking picture is so big a deal, don't take it initially when you acted crazy at the stage.
You are just putting us in an awkward situation now, and be such gossipy towards us. What the hell is that about?
Knew that you were trying to take charge of the whole situation, we might be wrong at some sense, however, at this juncture, i don't think it's a big deal that you should fussed over about.
You just wanted to feel powerful by bitching us. As we weren't your groupe.
I still don't think i was wrong anyhow. Frankly speaking!
If i m wrong about certain thing, i will admit it without pushing the blame over.
Though i don't have any clue what will happen next, or later. A big scold after all???
This is just what i am going to say, let it be, f*** it! Since the picture session has already been done, we couldn't mend it either. It couldn't be claimed as a big deal at all. Come on, this was the most common thing.
I don't think i will get F*** if i was in the Vegas.
A lot of things just stayed vague, as human's relationship is always hard to say.
When you favored a person, everything he/she did will be the best or nothing wrong, vice versa. I believed it true heartedly.
It works this way!
This is the reality that i always said~~~

Your Voice~~~

2010-03-07T11:58:00.003-05:00

Would like to hear from you guys more.
Found one thing here, blog has became a trend of knowing more news and ppl's thought.
It's a good way to let your surrounding knew what sorta person you are.
Sometimes, when it's hard to say out loud or convey face to face, this is definitely a good way.
However, a lot of ppl don't really know what's the usage of blog being.
Ppl here, i would put it as seldom blog. Lots of ppl do not know the real meaning of blogging.
There's a lot of concept been blocked, whereby it's just too new for ppl to accept it in a short while.
They need more time to adapt to the new technology and environment.
Like what i've watched from a show, when you've seen ppl replying your blog or whatever article or your thoughts, sharing their thoughts either.
It will be the happiest thing for the day. Unless you don't appreciate it.
Otherwise, for normal ppl, they will appreciate you reading their blog, and thanks for sharing the experiences or thoughts.

I don't really know how to describe it, what i knew is a very direct way.
Would like to hear from you guys, share more with me. And i believed, we can grow wiser together.
This is why blog existed. Lol...Though my philosophy might seems a little more complicated and ridiculous, however, the real meaning is just so straight.
I need your voice.
It really made my exhausting day when i've seen your message on my blog, i appreciated it, and thanks for those who always drop by and share with me what do you think.
For me, knowing that you guys have been dropping by very frequent and try to understands what i m trying to say, and, using your heart to read it.
Thanks for it and all.
It's simple, bloggers need your voice somehow!!!

Busybody Asians~~~

2010-03-04T09:43:00.004-05:00

What does busybody means?
Over concern towards a person/ matter can be one, gossip about ppl and still having the thought that i am in fact just wanted to concern more of what is it about can be one too, what else?
Ppl here used to be very busybody.
When sb met robbery or whatsoever, it can be a good way of busybody.
Like what i experienced on the bus when i went down to the town.
I wouldn't put it as funny, however, it's really cold.
Sth regarding cockroaches in the bus.
Two ladies who were sitting tight in the bus, when it came to one point of time, both of them suddenly stands up shockingly.
Kept looking at their seats. The whole bus were looking at them weirdly. Thought of what has happened to them.
They were from the Arabians, who don't speak good English and communicate well with the locals. Therefore, nb knew what has happened.
I'm right behind them, and have seen clearly of what has happened.
Cockroaches over cross the seats and stay put on the hanger.
That's the reason of they stands up shockingly, and unbelievably.

In my thoughts, Asian used to be very busybody and concerning in good way.
However, it's just not as what i've seen. Since when the trend has changed, ppl are just peeking over without lending their hand to help.
They don't have the intention to help as well. How could this happened in an Asian country?
This should be my question?
There's a few guy in the bus as well, but without a second move, they sit still in their seats.
What is this about?
Since when does Asian guys have this education to sit still in your seats without helping but just peeking at the ladies blankly.
How gentlemen they have been!

This is not it.
Some guys will even look at the ladies rudely. What have you been looking at?
This is a civilize country isn't it?
I've no idea how this country has turned to.
Especially to the guys, though the status of guys and ladies have been adjusted to be equal.
However, sometimes, i do think that guys and ladies can't be equalized in some ways.
Sometimes, guys still need to maintain their reputation and being gentlemen.
These are the needs. I thought so. And somehow very important.
For say, hold the door for the ladies when you've seen her running near, and not bang the door right on her face.
For say, when a lady has a handful and drop sth, please do help to get it up.
For say, while on the road, it's not a privilege of being a guy to cut the queue, just because the driver is a lady.
Oh please, this was what i've learned from kindergarten, it's no longer a lesson, but common sense isn't it.
I just can't believed my eyes somehow.
It's all still happened. Very frequently.
Which ppl never realized it's a problem.
Let me tell you why can it becomes a problem somehow.

1st, When you are not having proper education of how to be a person, being gentlemen or whatsoever, you will have no common sense towards how to respect a lady.
2nd, If you have no common sense towards how to treat/respect a lady, it will lead to discrimination towards lady.
3rd, The country will portray a high chauvinism, and obviously ladies nowadays have gradually becomes the main lead, and when the whole country couldn't get a consensus on that, the country wouldn't improve.
4th, It will then lead to the country economic unstable due to the discrimination and conflicts within the country.
5th, When all things happened, and the management level ppl kept on holding their persistence, crisis happens.
6th, When crisis happen, and there's no real leader who is willing to sacrifice their own, the country will lead or been categorized to be a 3rd world or below 3rd world country.
7th, It will just be a sad case where some ppl didn't realize at all.

Therefore, as i said, busybody for Asians has its' bad and good.
When Asians became non-busybody, it doesn't have the Asian's potential at all.
Busybody in a good way, but not busybody in a gossipy way. Whereby it's somehow very irritating.